Hare Krishna to all devotees 

Please accept my humble obeisances in your lotus feet 

All glories to Srila Prabhupada 

I am new I joined recently 5 months ago. 

I started chanting 1 round initially then increased to 4 and now i chant 8 rounds everyday.

But i have a horrible habit of watching porn masturbating and thinking all bad things abour women in my life and i cant help myself.

I thought something bad about a senior devotee who is also married. And now i cant get rid of the bad feeling. How can i be so dirty. Have i committed an offence in her lotus feet? How can i ever get rid of it. I cannot even chant because i dont consider myself worthy of holy name. Please help me. I am very sinful.

 

Your servant

Shatrughan

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    • Sevak

      Hare Krsna Mataji 

      Shukadeva Gioswami has summarised the situation of Kali yuga as below 

      kaler doṣa-nidhe rājann
      asti hy eko mahān guṇaḥ
      kīrtanād eva kṛṣṇasya
      mukta-saṅgaḥ paraṁ vrajet

      My dear King, although Kali-yuga is an ocean of faults, there is still one good quality about this age: Simply by chanting the Hare Kṛṣṇa mahā-mantra, one can become free from material bondage and be promoted to the transcendental kingdom. (SB 12.3.51)

      Whatever Shatrugan Chauhan Pr has mentioned or what you have mentioned are the details of the faults of Kali yuga. And for devotees it shouldn't be shocking. Situation is much much worse than what it appears and it will certainly get worse in future. We need to focus on the only solution possible. 

      You are not at fault in responding to queries. But I think we should be careful with and take necessary steps/precaution if we sense something wrong. Please continue to respond, we need the good answers you give. 

      Hare Krsna

  • Sevak

    Hare Krsna

    How can I be so dirty ?

    Srila Prabhupada has said this 

    Just like originally when the rain falls, it is pure distilled water. And as soon as touches the ground, it become polluted. Immediately dirty. Similarly, as spirit soul we are pure. As Kṛṣṇa is pure... Kṛṣṇa has explained in the Tenth Chapter, paraṁ brahma paraṁ dhāma pavitraṁ paramaṁ bhavān, puruṣaṁ śāśvataṁ divyam [Bg. 10.12]. So pavitraṁ paramaṁ bhavān. Kṛṣṇa is paraṁ pavitra, complete pure. And we are part and parcel of Kṛṣṇa; we are also pure. That is our real identity. We are pure, but we have been contaminated by the touch of this material world. The same example = the rain falls, it is pure distilled water, but when it touches the surface of the earth, it becomes dirty. Therefore we see the rivers are full of dirty water. That is not the water is dirty, but because it is mixed up with the dirty dirts of the surface of the globe... ( Lec on BG 4.20  April 9, 1974, Bombay)

    In summary spirit soul is pure. But association with material desires, the soul gets contaminated. There is practically no limit to how low a person can go.

    Have i committed an offence in her lotus feet ?

    Yes. It is offence to Krsna, guru and devotees. But this is at a mental level. It is a mental offence. If unchecked the mental offence will lead to verbal offence and physical offence. 

    And now i cant get rid of the bad feeling ?

    To get rid of dirt, we need cleansing agent. The most powerful cleansing agent is Krsna himself in the form of His Holy names - Hare Krsna. By humbly surrendering to the holy names we can get rid of our material contamination. 

    ceto-darpana-marjanam bhava-maha--davagni-nirvapanam
    shreyah-kairava-chandrika-vitaranam vidya-vadhu-jivanam
    anandambudhi-vardhanam prati-padam purnamritaswadanam
    sarvatma-snapanam param vijayate sri-krishna-sankirtanam

    Glory to the Sri Krishna Sankirtana, which cleanses the heart of all the dust accumulated for years and extinguishes the fire of conditional life, of repeated birth and death. This sankirtana movement is the prime benediction for humanity at large because it spreads the rays of the benediction moon. It is the life of all transcendental knowledge. It increases the ocean of transcendental bliss, and it enables us to fully taste the nectar for which we are always anxious.

    I cannot even chant because i dont consider myself worthy of holy name.

    This could be false ego. To consider oneself so fallen that holy name cannot uplift them is offence to Krsna. 

    When a baby is learning to walk on ground, it may fall on the ground and hurt itself. But the baby has to take support of the same ground, get up and start walking again. There is no other option.

    harer nāma harer nāma
    harer nāmaiva kevalam
    kalau nāsty eva nāsty eva
    nāsty eva gatir anyathā

    “ ‘In this Age of Kali there is no other means, no other means, no other means for self-realization than chanting the holy name, chanting the holy name, chanting the holy name of Lord Hari.’ ( CC Adi 17.21)

    Nobody has said we are worthy of the holynames. We are NOT. There should not be any doubt about it. But it is only by the infinite compassion of Lord Sri Chaitanya Mahaprabhu and Panchatattva that we have the previlige to chant the holy names. This is the greatest gift to humanity. It is up to us how we use this opportunity. 

    Hare Krsna

     

  • E-Counselor

    Hare KRsna Prabhuji,

    PAMHO.

    Chant - that is the first thing to do. Under all circumstances, chant.

    Others include:

    1) Sleep early.

    2) Do not touch any gadgets after 8 pm - detox

    3) Consciously read Bhagavad Gita or any book of Srila Prabhupada before retiring for the day

    4) Eat vegetarian food without onion garlic, after offering to the lord.

    5) Associate with devotee prabhujis.

    6) Practise calling all devotee women mataji, regardless of age. Try to mean the word.

    7) Understand that our bodies are nothing but bags of stool and urine. Everything that comes out of the 9 holes of the biody is abominable. Same applies to the body of any woman you are thinking of. 

    Haribol,

    Your servant,

    Radha Rasamayi DD

  • Get Married :)

    • Are you out of your mind or something?

      • There is supposed to be four orders of society and 4 orders which they live by one of which is married life. So if you are in mode of passion and ignorance you can curb it through marriied life.

      • why whats wrong with getting married? 

        • You are telling him to getting married, because he think bad abiut a senior devotee and is p addicted, dude where did you have came from?, do you have brain or something else in your head?

          • i didnt mean get married to the senior devotee i meant get married, get your mind out of the gutter!

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