"i am exactly in your shoes as they say so here is my recommendation
Try to stay connected to Krishna always,i know this sounds really a platitude but this works.You already know the hows of it but still a little explanation from me may…"
"Vishnu is Krishna only just dressed differently, like a person dresses different for meeting in office and dresses differently for sleeping at home.
What difference does it make if Krishna comes at nidhivan at night or day?
What exactly do you want…"
"Bharat prabhu g has very elegantly answered your question and there is nothing more to add to it.
I have added this reply only to prick you into doing some homework.
Why don't you atleast finish BG and SB from start to end and then come back here?…"
"More than how is it possible is the question that "will it last forever"
it may be possible due to reasons like you already mentioned --coming from previous lives etc.
One thing is 100% certain that senses not engaged in service of hrishikesha WILL…"
"yes prabhu g yoga maya is his own maya but he willfully lets himself be covered by his own potency to enjoy the leela,otherwise the leela would be FAKE.
I am not at liberty to discuss some esoteric truths but suffice it to say that even yoga maya…"
"of course he knows everything but in lilas he does not know.It is not as if he is acting in front of mother yashoda or his gopa friends.
e.g in damodar lila Krishna is not acting to be afraid of mother's stick,he actually is afraid.Verses from…"
"On reading your post i just felt my life being echoed albeit in different type of body..
the good news is that whatever you are wishing to achieve is possible in Krishna consciousness.The bad news is that it will need lots and lots of patience.It's…"
"there is no denying the fact that you are accumulating bad karma.
You could try something drastic ..like skipping meals to save up till you find suitable job while praying to the Lord of our lives all the time.
This might work as Krishna does relish…"
"going by word translation sadhguru means righteous guru,which seems like word play,for if the guru is not righteous then that person can't be termed as guru(when dealing with gurus that you have in mind not the gurus like honey bee etc).