Hare Krsna Prabhuji/ Mataji,
I have tried to not ask this question but I am finally asking because this thoughts disturb me much. Somehow I have been hearing many people sufferings even animals, I try to avoid to hear such things but now it is becoming so common that I am hearing it very often. I don't watch news because I can't see what people suffer, I feel very sad that I don't want to be here(it feels like such a cruel place). I sometimes hear how some people are even making negative comments about my lord(This hurts me like a bow has hit me). I pray krishna that I don't hear such things somehow please but somehow I get to hear such things. I don't understand why people do such activities. Why does maya devi attack them in such a bad way that they do such cruel activities? Now even hearing something material be good or bad feels like pain for me and hence I am just hearing and engaging most of my time in my lord. But I think this is limited due to my holidays, how will I manage after? Spending time without lord rememberance has become difficult for me because I only see negativity everywhere. How will I be able to deal with this, is there something which can provide me relief from this? Something which can assure me that you no need to worry?