Hare krishna, Dandwat pranam to all of you.
My name is Shatrughan and I live in Mathura and as i have stated in my previous post, i was fully krishna conscious 4 years ago, i didnt like any material things, but due to some personal problems i stopped chanting but after 4 years on the occasion of this Mahashivratri in february, i went to Shiv Temple and i dont know why i started singing Mahamantra and hair of my Body stood and Tears came out and Voice started fluttering, it has been 2 weeks since then i have started chanting regularly and feel these Ecstatic symptoms. But the problem is that... I cannot stay in krishna consciousness, just after chanting and experiencing krishna consciousness, my mind gets indulged into materialistic world and forgets krishna, this was not the case 4 years ago, but it is now, and as i chant, i get into krishna consciousness.
Why is it so?
Is it due to some Offences to holy name? But if there are any offences then why do i feel ecstasy in chanting? I am confused..I want to stay krishna conscious all the time..please help.