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Nice... :-) The asrama is a big testing ground for Krishna... any time you control yourself you make tons of progress....
Also before moving in it is better to have all relatives and friends backing you up in the process and have all the guidelines worked out in advance with all authorities, including the authorities over the bhakta program
Nice practical answer, mataji.
In this case envy,anger,criticisism arises in junior devotees mind.
If the seva is not done with proper attitude it is not seva. If it creates envy, anger criticism then it is not seva. the devotee should not accept so much services at all.
Please remember this doing seva is to attract mercy and make progress. If it is becoming obstacle in chanting 16 rounds or is prompting criticism of devotees then it clearly means the amount of seva has to be reduced.
I do not think anybody would forcefully burden others if that person is not willing to accept seva. The devotee must decide how much he can take depending on his capacity and clearly set limits.
Nobody can force anybody to do seva if they are not willing to. The individual must balance it.
You have to understand that, being contaminated by material nature, most sadakas are not sincere. Now, that may include you. (Sorry, for being so direct). That is something you have to introspect within yourself, on a nice Ekadasi day. Ekadasi, is a day for self examination.
Lets say, you did a little work and the superior paid you a lot. What would you think of him? Very merciful, correct?
Now try to understand, what is seva. Seva (to Lord and Vaishnavas) is spiritual equivalent of cash in material world.
Your senior is being very merciful is giving you maximum spiritual cash while he is not keeping any for himself (according to your words)
It is not easy to get Seva of the Lord. Think of how many millions and crores of people in India, who dont even get to see the front door of the temple, what to speak of being overburdened by Seva, by the mercy of the Lord and His devotees.
Only one in a thousand come to Krishna.
If you have come to ISKCON for the right reason, to serve the Lord, and His devotees, then you must feel bliss in doing these activities. Be honest.
If you have come to ISKCON for material benefits, then put up with what you think is crap and brighter days of material benefits ahead of you. Along with material nature, you will also get kicks of Maya Devi. Choice is yours.
I am not saying that your senior devotee is right and you are wrong. Or that you are right and He is wrong.
I have no way of knowing what is going on. I am not passing judgement on anyone.
All I know is that he is bestowing so much mercy (service) upon you, that you are not able to take it.
Here is another dynamic. What is lower in the material world is higher in the spiritual world.
By that your spiritual position is higher than your superior in the temple.
Now I am not speaking from theory. I have been there. I always wish to be in lower position. For obvious reason, as expalined above.
When I visit a temple, in Los Angeles, I engage myself, fully.
I dont always get the mercy to make it to Mangal Artik at 4:30am, Sometimes I make it to half or all of it.
Japa from 5:30-7:00 am
7:00 to 8:45 Bhagavatam class
9:00- I serve Prasadam
After that I help in the Kitchen till 11:30. Chop veges, peal potatoes etc, which no one wants to do :) Can you relate to that, prabhuji?
11:30am-12:30pm Kirtan in the temple.
Temple is closed till 4:30
I do seva in the temple from 4:30 until closing at 8:30 Kirtan, Bhagavad gita class etc.
When the temple is closed, I associate with other devotees at the temple, listen to others reading Bhagavad Gita, or participate in Kirtan, or sometimes go on a short Nagar sankirtan during lunch hour, walking by, restaurants near by.
Now this is living in Vaikunta.
Be at the lowest end, clean the temple or any service you can get. Senior positions have nothing but headaches. I assure you. Perhaps, if your survive, you will get to be one of them. Then you will be bossing them, those who dont want to do anything but complain. At the end of the day you are responsible to the Temple president, whether they do the work or not. Some time you may miss sleep at night you will be busy cleaning the floor or clean the dirty dishes, or chopping the vegetables because your subordinates did not do the job. Anyways, good luck!
What goes around comes around. If you complain, bitch and moan about the mercy of, what I feel, blissful Seva bestowed upon you, you too, when you get to manage people, will have to deal with 10x people who also just like you, complain, criticize, bitch and moan!!
Just chant Hare Krishna and serve with enthusiasm!! Is the teaching of Prabhupada.
Hope I helped you see the big picture. Forgive me if I offended you Govind Prajapati Prabhu
Kindly bless me that I too may be inundated with more Seva than I can handle, without going into a blissful experience.
My sincere request.
In Service of Vaishnas
If you are losing interest, and not getting taste for chanting the Names of the Lord, it is surely a sign of Namaparadh. Doesnt matter you say it exists or not.