Few months ago I found out about ISKCON and fell in love with it. I found out about ISKCON through the internet. My family is not Krishna Consciousness so I am the only one. I cannot visit ISKCON temple because my parents are very busy with their jobs and its very very far away. I do not have any devotees friends. I have never attended any aartis, lectures, kirtans, and met any guru to whom I can take help from to go further in KC. I do not even have deities of God so I cannot enjoy decorating Krsna. I love reading Srimad Bhagavatam and other books of Srila Prabhupada but I cannot buy them because my parents think that I should first get good career and then I can buy KC books with my own money. I am a teenager. I live in the United States and life here is full of ignorance and everyone is lost in maya and many do not even believe in god. Everyone around me is deeply fallen into maya. There is no one who thinks like me. But I am not complaining about it. I know that it takes a lot of good deeds in order for a man to get even a thought of krsna. I feel like this world is an illusion. It feels as if nothing is real. And sometimes I dont even feel my body. I look in the mirror and the body I see is not me. I want to go back to the beautiful lotus feet. I feel so unfortunate to not have a life filled with kirtan, krsna's deities, lectures and etc. I know that this situation is due to my past life karmas but what do I do? All I have is my soul and the internet. The internet is the only source I have that will help me get closer to my dear Lord. Please tell me on the type of lifestyle a person with this situation should live in. By the way I want to let all devotees know that you all are very lucky to have a life in which you can attend temple and perform activities of KC.
When will Krsna take me out of this and give me a life of a regular devotee?