HK..First of all, gratitude to all the devotees behind the forum and for giving ordinary person like us to post our queries here.
Before I post my question, I just wanted to give a quick background. While I have been following ISKCON since almost a decade now (though I am not at all advanced devotee and do not actually chant).
However, I do read a lot of spiritual stuff (including books like Bhagvad Gita, Bhagvatam, ISKCON blogs in whatever small time I could) Also by the permission of Krishna, I have visited Vrindavan a couple of times & each time I have been there, my faith has gone up tremendously.
Now coming to my question. While there is absolutely no doubt in my mind about whatever is mentioned in the scriptures, I seem to have got into a bit of dilemma off late. Essentially I am thinking of taking my mind off for some period of time away from KC. Now, there are a few reasons I am thinking of doing that;
1. It is a bit overwhelming reading some of the things mentioned and sometimes seem extremely difficult to comprehend while living in this material world.
2. In some cases, I feel to be getting a bit judemental looking at people who I interact on a daily basis (e.g. at office, etc) who are not into KC like finding it hard to believe why they are so and find it difficult to connect with them.
3. Also reading things like material knowledge being inferior has had a bit of negative effect. I do not want to take that in a wrong way by becoming lazy and not focus on enhancing my material knowledge (which being a grihastha, I think is also important to focus on)
Thus, to summarize, while I have absolutely no doubt in my mind about the higher taste of spiritual life and the inferior material nature, somehow I also feel that I need to take some break till I find myself more prepared. Please feel free to suggest how should I fix this dilemma.