Hari Bol. I need a counselling from an enlightened soul on one of my dilemma or fear. Although, I tried a lot to understand the concept of life better but still fear creeps in and unsettles me.
I am working in a MNC. For the past 3-4 years, I have a new boss with whom I could not establish a good rapport for the initial few years. I had some resistance or prejudices earlier. And, it was the time, I turned to spirituality to understand the events better. I feel that I have grown up as a much matured person for the past 3-4 years. I tried setting the things right with him and humbled a lot. He is also devotee of Krishna and he introduced me to it even.
There is a drastic change in my approach and attitude and have developed a lot of respect for him. On professional front, I feel I am much better in my Job and looking for growth to discharge my wordly obligations better. But I feel he is still caught in the prejudices which he doesn't show on face but hides somewhere in heart. He is making things difficult for me but more gentle to another colleague of mine who is more subdued to him. He has indicated the time frame to me even that I should start looking for a job. Of course, he does not have any solid reason currently to execute it but may be waiting for the opportunity.
With this scenario, of course, it is difficult to perform even. I try to forget everything and take each day as it is but it is difficult and am no exception. I am trying getting job outside and more the desparate I am, more far it seems. Can I request some senior devotee's to take me out of this dilemma? I am a family man and have responsibilities towards them. The fear of losing the job haunts me everyday now. Whatever brave face I put up, I am fearing inside.
Thanks and regards