There are some doubts I have been afflicted with over the years but by Krishna's mercy they are answered from within through realization I gained from my daily endeavor and also, more importantly, through the association of like minded devotees whom I have been fortunate enough to meet and be friends with. 'Doubts' as I have recently learned from one of the recorded videos of His Holiness Sri Gaur Govind Maharaja's lecture 'will make us perish' (I am paraphrasing). So, I kept an open mind and waited and am still waiting until the time the answers to my questions are revealed and my doubts, cleared, ushering convictions. Please bear with me while I try to express my doubts in the hope of some closure and if there is any remarks or expressions which any you may find offensive, I humbly beg your pardon.
So, here's my questions.
Concerning Vaishnavas and Humility
How does Vaishnavas remain humble when they are offered Vyas-asana, flower garlands and all the salutations of respect when they are present?
Is it by the strength of sense control & advancement in Krishna Bhakti that they remain humble? Should we rely on faith alone if someone decide to take shelter of a Vaishnava (especially Diksha Guru) or is someone allowed to test the strength of His purity through prescribed methods, if there are any?
Concerning the eternal nature of the soul
I am aware that this particular question has been asked numerous times before and I myself had asked couple of times but the answers were not satisfying.
How did the infallible pure devotees/pure soul at some point in time fell? Do the incident of Jay and Vijay offer us some clues to the nature of our existence? Were we supposed to fall? If so, were we supposed to purify ourselves and come back only to fall back again, if the Lord or we so choose? If this is the nature of jiva then is our ordeal of degradation and elevation a part of our role, which we will have to play eternally? Or is it that since the infallible pure devotees still has free will, can he turn away if he so choose from Krishna? Is pride, unavoidable, since we see instances of eternal associates suddenly held captive by pride? Or is the whole ordeal a part of total surrender?
The answer or any sincere attempt in answering will be greatly appreciated.