its been a while when i first came to know about krishna consciousness..since then my life has seen an amazing change.. really didnt know what really makes me so close to my dear krishna....!! i always heard nanny telling me that god is omnipresent whenever you need him just call him once and he will be there to help....and now i can really feel it..i can feel him by my side. but from last 3 months i am so worried coz krishna is taking too much care of me and i dont know am i serving him properly..? from last 15 days i am reading alot about vaishnavism and how they serve to krishna and also practicing srimad bagvatam..and i thought it will sort out my problem but in my case it became worst...i am not even deserve to be a dust of those devotees the way vaishnavs serve to god i feel like i am billions miles away to match the bhakti wid thm..more i read about the charitra of true devotees i feel like i can not reach the mark of becoming a true devotee..questions that i have in my mind that what really pleased krishna that he started taking too much care of me..whatever i wish he grant it to me..i stoped going to the temple coz i feel afraid now that if one day i asked some materialistic things from him and he will grant me that takez me away from him...toooo scary for me to even think about it....so do u believe i should stop searching the reason behind his mercy..?i dont know whom to asked this question ..so i posted here...if i have done something wrong forgive me..hare krishna
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You are so fortunate. Krsna takes care of everyone, especially His devotees. The difference is that you are able to feel His mercy and consider yourself most undeserving of it. Both the thoughts are sooooo rare and auspicious.
Pls dont stop going to the temple prabhuji. Please continue to meet your beloved lord in His Home, the embassy of the spiritual world in this world - our Hare Krsna temples.
We should try not to ask anything from Krsna. If we are in the habit of asking, ask the lord - please make me an instrument in Your plan and make me dance, as per Your wish. Pls keep only that desire in my heart and remove all other desires from my heart. I am very low - even if I ask you anything, please do not fulfill my desire. Pls allow me to desire to fulfill Your Will.
Please read the Jaladuta Prayers by Srila Prabhupada. It will explain a lot about what I am trying to convey.
I want the dust of your lotus feet prabhuji. Pls bless me and keep the entire IDT family in your prayers.
SB 10.88.8 — The Personality of Godhead said: If I especially favor someone, I gradually deprive him of his wealth. Then the relatives and friends of such a poverty-stricken man abandon him. In this way he suffers one distress after another.
SB 10.88.9 — When he becomes frustrated in his attempts to make money and instead befriends My devotees, I bestow My special mercy upon him.
SB 10.88.10 — A person who has thus become sober fully realizes the Absolute as the highest truth, the most subtle and perfect manifestation of spirit, the transcendental existence without end. In this way realizing that the Supreme Truth is the foundation of his own existence, he is freed from the cycle of material life.
SB 10.88.11 — Because I am difficult to worship, people generally avoid Me and instead worship other deities, who are quickly satisfied. When people receive kingly opulences from these deities, they become arrogant, intoxicated with pride and neglectful of their duties. They dare to offend even the demigods who have bestowed benedictions upon them.
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Hare Krsna Prabhujii,
PAMHO.
You are so fortunate. Krsna takes care of everyone, especially His devotees. The difference is that you are able to feel His mercy and consider yourself most undeserving of it. Both the thoughts are sooooo rare and auspicious.
Pls dont stop going to the temple prabhuji. Please continue to meet your beloved lord in His Home, the embassy of the spiritual world in this world - our Hare Krsna temples.
We should try not to ask anything from Krsna. If we are in the habit of asking, ask the lord - please make me an instrument in Your plan and make me dance, as per Your wish. Pls keep only that desire in my heart and remove all other desires from my heart. I am very low - even if I ask you anything, please do not fulfill my desire. Pls allow me to desire to fulfill Your Will.
Please read the Jaladuta Prayers by Srila Prabhupada. It will explain a lot about what I am trying to convey.
I want the dust of your lotus feet prabhuji. Pls bless me and keep the entire IDT family in your prayers.
Haribol,
Your servant,
Radha Rasamayi DD