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Vaishnav apradh

Posted by Vivek on October 9, 2025 at 9:24am in Vaishnava Aparatha

Prabhu ji,... Mata jis 

Please anyone please help me 😭..

I committed very big vaishnav apradh against all devotees

I took oath of all devotees , brajwasi ji , srila Prabhupada ji, that I will never do masturbation... If I do please never forgive me at any cost and give me problems ... I am 18 yrs old ... I accept I gave so many times oath and broke them  many times ... But what I could do ..? I was not old enough to control ... But this time I gave so much strongly promise .... But I broke it again 😭😭😭😭😭😭.. I committed very very big offences ... I am really destroyed totally materially, spiritually, mentally. .... I asked sorry to every devotees but unable to come out of this apradh .. please say what I shall do ... I am getting really fear .. my hands and legs are shaking ... I getting dreams my ancestors are suffering in hell ... This masturbation totally destroyed me into pieces ... Before I could start bhakti every finsihed for eternity 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔

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                    • Gayatri > Vivek November 22, 2025 at 10:35am

                      good job

                    • Vivek > Gayatri November 22, 2025 at 9:04am

                      Harekrishna mataji 🙏 

                      I offered water to tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      I offered diya to tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      Yesterday i did 5 rounds mataji and listenend to kirtan ji 🙏 

                      Today i offered tulsi leaf to lotus feet of Krishna ji 🙏 

                      Today also i will study,chant and listen to kirtan mataji 🙏 

                      Harekrishna 🙏 

                    • Gayatri > Vivek November 22, 2025 at 8:06am

                      ok good.

                    • Vivek > Gayatri November 21, 2025 at 8:35am

                      HareKrishna mataji 🙏 

                      I offered water to tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      I offered diya to tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      I offered tulsi ji leaves to lotus feet of Krishna ji 🙏 

                      Yesterday i did 5 rounds mataji and listened to harekrishna Mahamantra kirtan ji 🙏 

                      Today also mataji i will study , chant , and listen to kirtan ji 🙏 

                      Harekrishna 🙏 

                    • Vivek > Gayatri November 20, 2025 at 1:07pm

                      Thank you so much mataji 🙏 

                    • Vivek > Gayatri November 20, 2025 at 12:29pm

                      57 rupes mataji 

                    • Vivek > Gayatri November 20, 2025 at 12:15pm

                      Mataji i donated some money to soul of braj federation 🙏 

                      Mataji this organisation does daily prasad seva, education for girls , performs rescue operation, cleans yamuna ji, and so many other seva to devotees ji in Vrindavan dham 

                      I wanted to donate some amount for good cause ji , and i wanted to serve devotees ji , that's why mataji sometimes I offer this seva

                      Harekrishna 🙏 

                    • Vivek > Gayatri November 20, 2025 at 10:09am

                      Sorry for the late update mataji 🙏 

                      I offered water to tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      I offered diya to tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      Yesterday i did 5 rounds mataji 🙏 

                      And listened to kirtan 

                      Yesterday and today I offered tulsi leaves to lotus feet of Krishna ji mataji 🙏 

                       Today I offered my little seva to soul of braj federation 🙏 

                      Harekrishna 🙏. Really sorry mataji i sharing update lately, i will try to share by 9 am ji from tomorrow 🙏

                    • Vivek > Gayatri November 19, 2025 at 10:06am

                      Sorry for the late update mataji 🙏 

                      I offered water to tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      I offered diya to tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      Yesterday i did 5 rounds mataji 🙏 

                      I listened to harekrishna Mahamantra kirtan ji 🙏 

                      Yesterday i donated food and water to one person, mataji 🙏 

                      I offered my little seva to soul of braj federation 🙏

                       Today also i will study,chant and  listen to kirtan mataji 🙏 

                      Harekrishna 🙏 

                    • Vivek > Gayatri November 18, 2025 at 9:25am

                      Sorry for the late update mataji 🙏 

                      I offered water to tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      I offered diya to tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      Yesterday i did 5 rounds mataji 🙏 

                      And I listened to harekrishna Mahamantra kirtan by HIS DIVINE GRACE A.C.BHAKTIVEDANTA SWAMI PRABHUPADA JI 🙏 and HH LOKNATH SWAMI JI MAHARAJ ji 🙏 

                      Today I will study, chant and listen to kirtan mataji 🙏

                      Harekrishna 🙏 

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