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Vaishnav apradh

Posted by Vivek on October 9, 2025 at 9:24am in Vaishnava Aparatha

Prabhu ji,... Mata jis 

Please anyone please help me 😭..

I committed very big vaishnav apradh against all devotees

I took oath of all devotees , brajwasi ji , srila Prabhupada ji, that I will never do masturbation... If I do please never forgive me at any cost and give me problems ... I am 18 yrs old ... I accept I gave so many times oath and broke them  many times ... But what I could do ..? I was not old enough to control ... But this time I gave so much strongly promise .... But I broke it again 😭😭😭😭😭😭.. I committed very very big offences ... I am really destroyed totally materially, spiritually, mentally. .... I asked sorry to every devotees but unable to come out of this apradh .. please say what I shall do ... I am getting really fear .. my hands and legs are shaking ... I getting dreams my ancestors are suffering in hell ... This masturbation totally destroyed me into pieces ... Before I could start bhakti every finsihed for eternity 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔

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                    • Gayatri > Vivek November 2, 2025 at 10:13pm

                      So proud of you.

                      You are really progressing well.

                      keep up the good work.

                       

                    • Vivek > Gayatri November 2, 2025 at 8:23am

                      Harekrishna mataji 🙏 

                      Yesterday i completed 8 rounds 

                      Yesterday i offered diya to tulsi maiya ji 

                      Yesterday i completed reading the book mataji and started reading the next book mataji 🙏 

                      Yesterday i donated food to two people mataji 🙏 

                      Today I didn't offer water to tulsi maiya ji because today is ekadashi ji but I will offer diya mataji 🙏 

                      Today also i will try to do 8 rounds mataji 🙏 

                      Harekrishna 🙏 

                       

                    • Vivek > Gayatri November 1, 2025 at 9:58am

                      Thank you so much mataji 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏 

                    • Gayatri > Vivek November 1, 2025 at 9:56am

                      hare krishna, nice work. keep going.

                    • Vivek > Gayatri November 1, 2025 at 9:03am

                      Harekrishna mataji 🙏 

                      I watered tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      Yesterday and today I offered diya to tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      Yesterday i completed reading the book mataji and today I will take the next book ji 🙏

                      Yesterday i completed 8 rounds ji today also i will try to do 8 rounds mataji 🙏 

                      Harekrishna 🙏 

                       

                       

                    • Vivek > Madhava das October 31, 2025 at 2:22pm

                      Thank you so much madhava das prabhuji 🙏🙏🙏🙏 really it means alot ji 🙏 

                       

                    • Vivek > Gayatri October 31, 2025 at 2:16pm

                      Thank you so much mataji 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏 

                    • Madhava das > Madhava das October 31, 2025 at 11:30am

                      Good thing about being a Deity is that one need not answer the call of nature. :)

                    • Gayatri > Vivek October 31, 2025 at 11:10am

                      Good job.  keep going.

                    • Vivek > Gayatri October 31, 2025 at 9:12am

                      Harekrishna mataji 🙏 

                      I watered tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      Yesterday i offered tulsi leaves to lotus feet of Krishna ji 🙏

                      I did 8 rounds yesterday mataji 🙏 

                      Today also i will try to do mataji 🙏 

                      By tomorrow I will finish reading the book mataji 🙏 

                      Yesterday i offered tulsi leaves to the lotus feet of Krishna ji mataji 🙏 

                      Harekrishna 🙏 

                       

                       

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