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Vaishnav apradh

Posted by Vivek on October 9, 2025 at 9:24am in Vaishnava Aparatha

Prabhu ji,... Mata jis 

Please anyone please help me 😭..

I committed very big vaishnav apradh against all devotees

I took oath of all devotees , brajwasi ji , srila Prabhupada ji, that I will never do masturbation... If I do please never forgive me at any cost and give me problems ... I am 18 yrs old ... I accept I gave so many times oath and broke them  many times ... But what I could do ..? I was not old enough to control ... But this time I gave so much strongly promise .... But I broke it again 😭😭😭😭😭😭.. I committed very very big offences ... I am really destroyed totally materially, spiritually, mentally. .... I asked sorry to every devotees but unable to come out of this apradh .. please say what I shall do ... I am getting really fear .. my hands and legs are shaking ... I getting dreams my ancestors are suffering in hell ... This masturbation totally destroyed me into pieces ... Before I could start bhakti every finsihed for eternity 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔

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                    • Vivek > Gayatri October 31, 2025 at 9:10am

                      Harekrishna mataji 🙏 

                      I watered tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      Yesterday and today I offered diya to tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      Yesterday i completed 8 rounds mataji 🙏 

                      Today also i will try to do mataji and by today i will complete reading the book mataji 🙏 

                      Harekrishna 🙏 

                       

                    • Vivek > Gayatri October 30, 2025 at 9:37am

                      Thank you so much mataji 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏 

                    • Gayatri > Vivek October 30, 2025 at 9:21am

                      Super

                    • Vivek > Gayatri October 29, 2025 at 1:38pm

                      Ok mataji 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏 🙏 

                    • Gayatri > Vivek October 29, 2025 at 1:23pm

                      good progress

                      keep going

                    • Vivek > Gayatri October 29, 2025 at 9:42am

                      Harekrishna mataji 🙏 

                      I watered tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      Yesterday i offered tulsi leaf to Krishna ji 🙏 

                      I read  the book half Mataji, soon i will complete it 

                      Yesterday i did 8 rounds mataji 🙏 

                      Today also i will try to do mataji 🙏 

                      Harekrishna 🙏 

                    • Vivek > Gayatri October 28, 2025 at 12:18pm

                      Ok mataji 🙏 harekrishna 🙏 

                    • Gayatri > Vivek October 28, 2025 at 12:00pm

                      good  keep going hare krishna

                    • Vivek > Gayatri October 28, 2025 at 9:04am

                      Harekrishna mataji 🙏 

                      I watered tulsi maiya ji 🙏

                      I did 8 rounds yesterday mataji 🙏 

                      I am reading the book ji, and trying to learn bhajan for Krishna ji mataji 

                      Today also i will try to do 8 rounds mataji 

                      Harekrishna 🙏

                    • Vivek > Gayatri October 27, 2025 at 10:45am

                      Thank you so much mataji 🙏 

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