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Vaishnav apradh

Posted by Vivek on October 9, 2025 at 9:24am in Vaishnava Aparatha

Prabhu ji,... Mata jis 

Please anyone please help me 😭..

I committed very big vaishnav apradh against all devotees

I took oath of all devotees , brajwasi ji , srila Prabhupada ji, that I will never do masturbation... If I do please never forgive me at any cost and give me problems ... I am 18 yrs old ... I accept I gave so many times oath and broke them  many times ... But what I could do ..? I was not old enough to control ... But this time I gave so much strongly promise .... But I broke it again 😭😭😭😭😭😭.. I committed very very big offences ... I am really destroyed totally materially, spiritually, mentally. .... I asked sorry to every devotees but unable to come out of this apradh .. please say what I shall do ... I am getting really fear .. my hands and legs are shaking ... I getting dreams my ancestors are suffering in hell ... This masturbation totally destroyed me into pieces ... Before I could start bhakti every finsihed for eternity 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭💔

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    • Vivek November 6, 2025 at 8:30am

      At present prabhuji, I feel I have no interest in that habit any more,,now I feel I just want to serve krishna and make him happy 

      Hari bol 

    • Vivek November 6, 2025 at 8:27am

      Harekrishna prabhuji 🙏

      No prabhuji now I am not doing it , I left it and never want to repeat it again 

      Hari bol

    • Vivek > Gayatri October 20, 2025 at 9:34am

      Hare Krishna mataji 🙏 🙏, i completed damodar astakam ji , today I will try to chant more rounds ji

      • Vivek > Vivek October 20, 2025 at 9:34am

        I watered tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

    • Vivek > Gayatri October 19, 2025 at 2:33pm

      https://www.speakpipe.com/msg/s/434397/9/fiy1en1y2xtcpx5g

      https://www.speakpipe.com/msg/s/434397/10/891pko98pv8jy3hw

      Mataji in speakpipe maximum record time is 90 seconds so i recorded 5 verses in first and 3 in second 

        • Vivek > Gayatri October 21, 2025 at 9:24am
          1. Harekrishna mataji 🙏I completed 5 rounds yesterday, 
          2. I also donated food to someone 
          3. Today I want to do 5 rounds 
          4. Today I will offer my little seva to braj dham seva trust 
          5. I watered tulsi Maiya ji mataji 🙏
            • Vivek > Gayatri October 22, 2025 at 9:39am

              Harekrishna mataji 🙏 🙏 

              I watered tulsi maiya ji 

              Yesterday i completed 6 rounds mataji 🙏 

              I offered my seva to iskcon vraja dham seva 

              Today also i will try to complete 6 rounds mataji 🙏 

                • Vivek > Gayatri October 23, 2025 at 8:47am

                  Harekrishna mataji 🙏 

                  1. I watered tulsi maiya ji 

                  2. Yesterday i completed 6 rounds 

                  3. Today I will try to do 7 rounds 

                  4. I will try to learn any bhajan for Krishna ji mataji 🙏 

                    • Gayatri > Vivek November 23, 2025 at 11:45am

                      okay good.

                    • Vivek > Gayatri November 23, 2025 at 9:13am

                      Harekrishna mataji 🙏 

                      I offered diya to tulsi maiya ji 🙏 

                      I didn't offer water ji as today is Sunday tulsi maiya ji will be on fasting 🙏 

                      Yesterday i did 5 rounds mataji and listenend to kirtan 

                      And daily I am reading the book mataji 🙏 

                      Today also i will study, chant and listen to kirtan ji 

                      Harekrishna 🙏 

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