From: Rashmi Khaitan
Sent: 15 December 2014 10:12
To: 'Chirag Sharma'
Subject: RE: Unconditional Apology
Hare Krsna Chirag Prabhuji,
I should be the one to apologise and believe me, I would have done it today first thing in the morning, on IDT Discussion Forum itself. I thought that if we can have a public spat, we should also have a public reconciliation. Past 2-4 days, I have been too busy and due to some office exigency, I had to get my internet connection in office disconnected and has got reconnected only now. That’s why I have not been able to visit IDT yet.
Pls believe me, whatever has happened, I do not carry anything in my heart.
I am very fallen prabhu, I am also struggling in my journey back home, though a lot of people think I am a pure devotee. That’s why I keep on clarifying on the forum that I am not. I am full of anarthas, as you have seen. Please pray that atleast I do not hurt anyone anymore. My purpose is to go back, not to gather more anarthas.
Prabhu, if you do not come back to the forum, I will feel responsible for driving away a good, sincere sadhaka like you. Will Krsna every give me His mercy then?
You are trained by my favourite people – HG Acharya Ratna Prabhuji is so sincere and so austere. I have never spoken to him, I hold him in the highest regard. In Kolkata temple, brahmacharis maintain very high standard - they stay so far away from matajis and don’t even look at our faces, their eyes are down if at all they have to talk to us for anything.
I am and will remain your servant,
From: Chirag Sharma [mailto:firstname.lastname@example.org]
Sent: 14 December 2014 12:25
To: Rashmi Khaitan
Subject: Unconditional Apology
Hare Krishna Rashmi Mataji,
I am sorry for my extremely inappropriate comment I had made on the forum about you. Please forgive me for my behaviour. I have left the form, so I cannot make this apology official over there.
I am sure this apology is not sufficient for the mistake I had committed, but devotees love you there at the forum and they miss you there.
I am already gone. I hope I will never be of any trouble again to any devotee.
Hare Krsna to all - some text has been deleted from both Chirag Prabhu's mail and mine deliberately.
My purpose of posting this is frequently it happens that the displeasure any devotee feels because of another devotee is aired publicly, but the apologies are done privately. I wanted everyone to know that neither Chirag Prabhu nor I are carrying any animosity in our hearts. Whatever happened was very unfortunate.
I wanted everyone to know that like it is not possible to find healthy people in a hospital - that same way we are all sadhakas and still on our journey to become devotees. We can have our differences, but it does not last long and that we are united in our common purpose of pushing each other towards Radha Krsna.
I ask forgiveness from one and all for the unfortunate incident last week, for the hurt I have caused to a lot of people and for the unrest some may have had in their minds due to our behaviour.