It's been only 3 to 4 months in KC for me. I was so happy when i initially started, never could have been much happier! But now, i keep crying to Krishna to take me away from everything. I just feel like dedicating my life simply chanting his names and glories. I find a constant internal struggle. I feel i am such a fallen soul that i dont have knowledge of vedas or shastras. I dont follow everything that perfectly apart from chanting my rounds as i sometimes very busy at work. My rounds fluctuate too at times - 30 or 16 or 10 or none. when my family or my mum says something to me, i get fed up and i dont feel like doing anything.
It just seems like i keep fighting within myself. I am so tired of this relationship bondage that i want to break free. i find my life meaningless....
are this common problems during initial stage of KC or else am i just not talking sense.
Hare Krishna Hare Krishna
Krishna Krishna Hare Hare
Hare Ram Hare Ram
Ram Ram Hare Hare