i am hearing mahamantra. it is peaceful to the mind. i started chanting but my chanting gets interrupted because of my wavering mind leading to error. sometimes self doubts arises.please help me to realize my mistakes.
1) when i chant harekrishna i feel good but i am bored quickly.
2)my mind is not inclined to chant mahamantra with firm faith in krishna.(i fear krishna will punish me severely to make me surrender to him if i do any mistake in my life)
3) i feel frightened that i will loose my materialistic knowledge which is necessary to get job for survival(i am jobless for two years) and i will engage myself in spiritual tour of mind and sit in home simply.
4) i am fearing so much inside like my Neighbors tease me that i am stupid idiot coward not able to get a job and cheating my parents in the name of god.
5)some people are questioning my manliness because of don't having a job.it is like provoking me to become evil hearted person.
sir my mind is just polluted by daily happenings of the world. please help me to understand these things.
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Association of vaishnavas and sadhus are the base of spiritual progress.