Hare Krishna All,
All glories to srila prabhupada!
Please forgive me if Iam offensive. I am chanting 16 rounds and also following regulative
principles....sometimes I force myself to chant and finish 16 rounds.......and I feel bad that Iam
not doing this out of love for krishna but for my selfish desire of being safe and secure my future.
I am exposed to many materialistic pleasures and dont have proper brought up as well, that may be
one of the reason for not getting the taste of krishna consiousness.I think People who are pure enough and whose brought up is good can develop krishna consiousness very quickly. In my assosiation I have
person who can recite most of the mantras and has good command on bhagawadam and bhagwadgita
and respect him for his vedic knowledge, his yoga practice, but when it comes to women and relationships, he is more eager to know about them and so on,I feel he is pretending to be devotee. this makes me feel that there is something else that is needed to develop pure bhakti and to be called as devotee. Inspite of all this I am practising krishna consiousness and trying to get the taste of it. I want to taste krishna consiousness and go deep into it, the problem is Iam not totally convinced. Does this comes with time or I am lacking any effort? Please help me to become devotee as I dont want to be pretender.