In Bhagavad Gita the Lord says that it is better for one to perform his own occupation imperfectly rather than to perform another's occupation perfectly. For the last few years I have been struggling with finding a career that allows me to perform my dharma as I see it. I feel that I belong in the military and that is how I can serve the Lord with my life and what comes natural to me. I am currently unemployed and am getting in shape before I apply to another possible job opportunity. My question is should I focus all my efforts on preparing for this job that allows me to happily serve Krsna with my life and trust that Krsna will provide? Or should I play it safe and just get any job so long as I am working? I am trying to follow what I believe in but I am constantly having doubts that I am just being irresponsible and living in a fantasy. I want to grow into the most responsible and devoted servant that I can be but I am wondering if maybe I am taking some of Krsna words too literally and I am actually behaving to my detriment. I just know that the career I am chasing is exactly what I need to help me with discipline and many other areas that I need much improvement in. So if I am being completely honest I know this is the best thing for me I am just worried that if it doesn't work out I won't be able to support myself. Which is more irresponsible? To risk financial security in an effort to grow spiritually or to risk spiritual growth in an attempt to be financially responsible. I know that even in an extreme situation such as homelessness Krsna will always be with me but I guess if I am being honest I am worried about what plan Krsna has for my life. Thank you for any advice.