Hare Krishna to all the fellow devotees,All glories to srilavprabhupad,Dear Devotees, please hear my predicaments,I'm a 17 year old living in Singapore, and before coming into Krishna Consciousness, which is about roughly 7 months, I had a very sinful habits of meat eating and watching explicit content and gratify my genital urges while watching those kind of degraded videos. After coming into KC, I completely stopped eating meat and remained as a celibate for good 5 months. Now it has came back to haunt me, no matter what I do, hear hari katha, chant 16 rounds, and distract myself, I just lost it. I was very happy that I thought I finally stopped it. But now all is lost. My spiritual life has gone down the drain and now I'm bewildered even if krishna or gauranga will even accept me. It's very hard for me, my parents are non devotees so they don't really favour my Krishna consciousness activities, my "friends" are not at all into spirituality, it's too pressuring for me. Everytime I try to chant, I have an enormous amount of guilt. I don't know why, even though I know it's all Maya, we are not this bodies and importance of semen retention, it's as though completely controlling me, despite my best efforts to chant. I have no association with vaishnavas as my parents don't allow me to. What can I do in this kind of circumstances? Will krishna accept me once more? Thanks a lot, Hare Krishna.