Hare Krishna ,
PAMHO, AGTSP.
Today out of nowhere morning i doubted that naam jap is better or mantra and in that i scrolled YouTube and chrome all way. And then i saw videos where some say maha mantra is right but gudiya vaishnava turned it and put krishna first and that kind of videos and that created a kind of doubt in my mind. I cannot understand What to do. Then after hours of debate seen on YouTube i took radha naam for 24 hour jap and don't know why but whenever i spoke that uncertain incidents happening around me. And then out of fear i stop doing naam jap and stick to astakshar mantra which i used to chant "it's without initiation ". And don't know what happened to me. I felt immense fear out of nowhere. And intense fear of unknown and after that i lost my bhakti. I can't concentrate on sri krishna anymore. Is it naam apradh or vaishnav apradh because that mantra debate created doubt and also i feel some kind of hate towards HG amogh lila prabhu and Dr. Vrindavan Chandra das regarding that mantra claim. Now I don't know what to do and how to atone this. Please guide me and help me i don't wanna lose krishna bhakti. please help
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