Hare Krishna To All Vaishnavas !!
This question is everyday haunting me , finally thought to discuss
Before becoming Krishna Councious , I worshipped Krishna ,But did not knew
who is he really . . Who am I . . ?
So i committed to a girl 5 Years younger than me , and promissed that i will marry her for sure
" Actually That Girl Only have his brother and no one in this world ,
She proposed me in Sadness and tears , I asked Krishna within my heart what to do ,
He said Go Ahead , Live for her ,she needs you unconditionally "
Now i am only Boy child of my parents so they agreed , I told them please do not talk to me about this matter before i stand on my feets !!
I meet that girl nearly once in a month and that also from very far , because i know people can think in wrong way , if Krishna do not want us to be together ,than atleast no one will put finger on her values !!
Now i am 21 , and sometimes think what will happen after marriage beacause i am KCON ,
and how to live with a women , especialy when i have always ignored these things . .
Also how to wait for 5 more years !!
I do not want to distract myself in Sexual Life because i have faced chalenges to overcome ,
sexual attraction !!
sometime i think tht Krishna if you had not sent this girl then i would had remained Bhramchari,
and controlled my senses , what is this Krishna , that you have given a gift that will take you away from me !!
I have told her that we have to remain KCON forever ,
but i do not like worshipping whole day then , enjoying senses in Night !!
It will be a cheat to Krishna !!
Please help and suggest ways to Controll Senses Today and after marriage !!
Please help i need Your Help Krishna !!
Please help me . .