Please accept my humble obeisances
All glories to Srila Prabhupada.
I had just gotten back to New Vrndavan this week but, I've had this realization. Lately my heart feels like it cannot spiritually advance here. My close friend Mother Sudevi is not here and she is like a guru to me she is in Texas. I've been feel so uncomfortable here, and if I stay here I fear I won't spiritually advance.
But in Toronto I feel I can. With a lot of good reasons. My guru Maharaj is there, I have Godbrothers and Godsisters there, the prasadam is wonderful, the Deities are beautiful, and the association is 100 times better. I feel a lot more stronger spiritually in New Remuna Dham in Toronto. New Vrndavan is too hard for me I think. A couple other devotees here in New Vrndavan said Toronto is probably the best move. My guru Maharaj emailed me last night and said Toronto is good for me as long as it's conducive.
So I don't know if this is a good or a bad realization?