Hare Krishna Prabhu Jis and Mata Jis
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada.
Recently I have been having intrusive thoughts which is disturbing and hindering me from devotion.
All were good. Recently I engaged myself more into reading Bhagavatam and sharing my learning with my near ones.
Like never before, I am getting bad intrusive thoughts about Lord. I feel very guilty and depressed.
Whenever I think about the Lord these thoughts come up but if I am doing or thinking something materialistic the thought never at all comes up!!
I am unable to control the mind regarding that thought. I try all I can to explain my mind not to think as it is false and offensive and tell the opulences and glories of Lord.
I feel like there are three parts of mine. One giving me offensive thoughts, a depressed me and one saying me what to do when I feel confused. (I know I am a soul but I don't know who this I, me, myself is).
Still whenever I think of the Lord, see any video or post of devotees, it comes up. I do not want to be offensive to Lord and want to grow in serving him.
Please guide me in this. I really need your guidance.
Jai Shree Radhe Krishna