Hare Krishna Dear Devotees. All Glories to Srila Prabhupada.
I have been Krishna conscious for over 20 years now, and I cannot imagine my life without Krishna. A year ago, I met a Muslim woman and we started a relationship. Shortly after we met, I told her that I would not convert to Islam as I could never leave Krishna Consciousness. She was a bit resistant, but she accepted it. However, her family members are now putting pressure on her to make me convert to Islam. She recently asked me if I would convert because she's worried that she won't go to heaven if she marries a non-Muslim person. I told her that I could not leave Krishna Consciousness as my heart belongs to Krishna, and even though I respect her faith, I cannot convert. I had always hoped that, after marriage, she and I could live in an interfaith household, where we could practice each others' religions and bring our children up to respect all religions, as Srila Prabhupada had taught. I have always treated her with the utmost repspect and have made many sacrifices for her, so that she could be comfortable in the relationship. And she has also shown me much love and support over the past year. However, I can now see that she is asking more from me than is reasonable. She even says that if we get married, she wouldn't want me to chant Hare Krishna in my own home, or even go to the temple, for fear of the children asking about Krishna Consciousness, as she wants the children to be brought up as Muslims.
In my heart, I know that this relationship will damage my sadhana, and I know that I need to end it, but it's difficult as we both have feelings for each other. Any advice from the devotees of Krishna would be greatly appreciated.