Hare Krishna.
At the time of need, Krishna blessed me with my current living situation. From a filthy house far away to a clean house very close to work. Ever since moving in unfortunately I have had very high anxiety from my current roommate/coworker. Although very helpful and accommodating with my needs we just don't match well and it has become a very big problem. I want out, but don't have much money, my car recently broke down, and my family has moved away. I have recently fallen from all spirituality and must be guided back, I feel so distressed without Krishna but feel like He wont take me back as a devotee.
How can I pray to Krishna for help in getting to where I want to be and how can I reestablish my faith? I want to sell my car, buy a van, and live from that traveling to rock climb (my favorite thing to do) and visit temples.
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how can I reestablish my faith?
Please associate with devotees by visiting nearby temple every week (or at least once during weekends). Attend and hear the SBB or feast classes every week without fail. Only if possible, provide a small physical hand in some temple service.
This would really help. Its a slow and steady process. Make efforts to visit temple if far away.
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Your message sounds like you are in genuinely in great distress. Then channel that distress while chanting the Hare Krishna maha-mantra, Hare Krishna Hare Krishna Krishna Krishna Hare Hare / Hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare. "The chanting is a spiritual call for the Lord and His energy, to give protection to the conditioned soul. This chanting is exactly like the genuine cry of a child for its mother’s presence."-- Srila Prabhupada. So chant in that mood, like a cry of a child for its mother.
Also, if your roommate is bad association, it would be a good idea to extricate yourself from that situation, even if it means personal inconvenience.
Don't think that Krishna will not take you back. Pray to Sri Nityananda Rama.
Hare Krsna prabhuji,
PAMHO.
The way to go back to spirituality is to simply restart all the spiritual activities you were doing previously. Chanting, reading, associating, eating prasadam. Take baby steps if doing everything at the same time is appearing a tall task for you now.
Once your sadhana is back on track, you will get the strength to face whatever tribulations you face in life and life will come back on track.
If Krsna decided He doesn't want to forgive us for our offences, then none of us would be able to walk down this path. Just imagine, so many lifetimes, so many offences. Still Krsna loves us so much that despite everything we have forgotten and He remembers, He still wants us to go back to Him and allows us to do devotion.
Haribol,
Your servant,
Radha Rasamayi DD