i need help from people on this community as i have committed many vaishnava apradhas against many devotees my heart is tottaly filled with ignorance and i need your help to make it pure i chantt more than 10 rounds of nityananada naam daily. read chaitanya bhagwat daily. my problem is really serious i need help people i need help i think i am probably under demonic possesion i need help from you prabhu jis . i have nearly all symptoms of demonic possesion and their is more than one demon that has possessed me the symptoms that i witness are 1- convulsions while on remembering lord nityananda 2- unlimited strength 3- possession 4- suicidal thoughts the demon makes me to commit vaishnava apradha what should i do i fear i am going to end my life. as my heart is filled with apradhas i cannot recieve love for god should i go to a saint and ask for love of god?