Hare Krishna! Dandavat Pranam to all!
I consider Krishna as a friend, but every now and then, almost every few hours, I feel like he's putting in all the effort, and I'm simply asking him things and not reciprocating.
I do have some addictions which I'm trying to overcome, and I do achieve that, sometimes for a week, two weeks maybe, but ultimately when I think "oh I've done it", eventually I end up returning to it, even when I think "it's so easy to give up".
Whenever that happens I feel enormous guilt and also feel that Krishna would hate me--which he won't--but that guilt paired with the feeling that I'm not reciprocating really bothers me, and I feel lost. To the point I genuinely wonder if I'm even eligible/worthy of redemption or grace.
So I was really wondering how exactly I could tackle these problems of mine, how can I be more sincere in devotion, and in what ways I can reciprocate to Krishna.
Hare Krishna!
All glories to Srila Prabhupada!
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