Hare Krishna to all wonderful Devotees.
One thing is really disturbing for me for a long time i.e the Money issue. I am working in the corporate sector for the last 3 years & hate doing what I am working on. Although being a new devotee of ISCKON I've learned many things to overcome all fears but still this Maya energy takes the test of devotees at all the time, I personally feel so. Right now, I am feeling that I am not getting worth my salary due to pandemic, since last year many companies fired their employees, many lost their jobs, yearly increment was not in line. India is really going through a recession for quite many years.
So, how to keep myself calm regarding my salary issue and other insecurities, since I am a devotee of Lord Krishna, I chant daily, read spiritual books daily. Lord Krishna says in Bhagawad Gita that our body is the field of activities & can we have to fight with full strength with our anxieties & fears. Then why I am becoming weak.
There are many householders in ISCKON who are earning around 20-25k per month but still, they are happy, maintaining their families & living a life of simplicity without any miscellaneous expenditures. Isn't so.
It's not like that I am depressed but I am a bit sad due to some fears. I keep myself reminding that Krishna is with me, how can he make me fall, when Krishna is with me then why I am fearing of all these nonsense things be it money or any other thing. But Maya is really troubling me because I am trying to get out of her & want to advance in my spiritual life which has some meaning in life. I joined ISCKON to become happy & peaceful as nothing is more valuable for me than becoming happy, serving the devotees of the Lord & loving Krishna unconditionally.
What do you think guys, is my faith not strong on the lord, or I am possed by money?