I have a sister who I do not get along with. I don't think she is a good person but she has a beautiful daughter who I love. Her boyfriend and I don't like each other very much either and have come close to violence on multiple occasions. I have been trying hard lately to put my anger in check and not let it get the best of me which usually involves me keeping my mouth shut altogether in certain situations because if I get going I am not certain that I will be able to stay in control. Her daughter is 5 years old and I believe it is disrespectful to use curse words or filthy language around her and everyone knows my feelings. I think my sister's boyfriend feels insecure around me because on the occasions where we almost had altercations it was he who backed down. The reason I bring this up is now they have taken to passive aggressive means to anger me but not escalate the situation to a direct conflict such as using disrespectful language in front of my niece but outwardly acting as if nothing is wrong. I ask your advice if you think I should say something or if I should just leave it alone because as much as I love her she is not my daughter and ultimately I am not the one who will be raising her. I am worried if I do say something and they are disrespectful I will not be able to keep my anger in check. It is a big weakness of mine and I am working on mastering my emotions but I am not there yet. Thank you for listening and all the help I have received on this forum. It means a lot.
PS. I want to start taking chanting more seriously so any advice you have on gradually improving my number of rounds chanted would also be very much appreciated.