hare krishna prabhujis.(i am a student 18yrs).. pls i want a help from you all.....i am a very unfortunate and a poor soul.....i have been in touch with this iskcon movement from past 2 and a half years.. i am chanting 10 rounds now ..but to my disappointment i have been pulled by maya ...due to my past bad habits i am suffering now..i used to watch illicit videos a lot and now although i am doing my sadhana surprisingly i will be pulled one or the other day to watch..after doing i feel helpless..i am ashamed of this:( i feel very awkverd to associate with devotees..and going to temple......i am doing a big offence to guru and krishna ... i am not able to follow brahmacharya properly.
i am in very unfair situation .....pls pls help me with your valuable inputs .i beg you:(
your servant
jai srila prabhupada
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Hare Krishna Prabhuji. Please accept my humble obeisances. All Glories to Srila Prabhupada
I see only one way in this kind of scenario is weekly/regular association with devotees in temple for a whole day especially in sunday and simultaneously doing service like prasadam seva to devotees and etc along with this strictly following 4 regulative principle.
Another thing is try to avoid internet as much as possible and avoid the association of non-devotees. Actually mind has a tendency to adopt the nature of associates of an association.
Your aspiring Servant.
Hari Bol