Hare Krsna
Dandavat Pranam
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada
Please accept my humble obeisances
Few months ago , when I was not as much as aware as right now, I visited Sri Vrindavan Dhāma , and being unaware I foolishly purchased deities at that time I was not so well connected to ISKCON, now after researching I found out we should only have deities after initiation and permission of Guru Maharaj, and ironically I purchased Sri Sri Radha Krishna deities which are very difficult to serve and furthermore I am a student and totally incapable of serving them , not able to even offer regular bhogas even seldom aarti and similar rites so I am in such a problem, and I think this is also disrupting spiritual life altogether, so what should I do? I am visiting Sri Dhāma again in the end of November, should I give them and to give whom ?
I am in an urgent and colossal emergency
Please please please I beg help me
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Hare Krishna,
Nothing comes to you simply. We think we brought it but Radha Krishna chose you to be served by you. Keeping rules apart. . . You are so fortunate to visit Shri Vrindavan dhaam so frequently.
Not everyone of us can. Unless one has Shree ji's Kripa we cannot reach Vrindavan even if we have money... tickets all booked also one cannot enter the land simply without HER permission. This not my opinion only and everyone says so.
Yes.. ofcourse, your guru maharaj should give your the deities or some senior vaishnava should give you the deities and initiate you into bhakti. ...
I got my deities from my Mother in law( a senior vaishnavi) she became too old and is unable to keep the seva as she is bed ridden during her operation and so she gave it to me. .. as they are comping from many generations. My mother inlaw got it from her grand mother ( senior most vaishanvi ).. it is passed out like this. Those deiites which I have are in pure silver but then.. they lost the features.. eyes nose not very visible becasue it is coming from so many generations and many have done bhakti to that... I feel very much honored to get those and I try to do seva to them regularly. If nothing is there just a small fruit or some flower or nothing is available only water or tulasi patti..? can't you do this much seva?
Are the deities very big in size?
If they are small like mine ( 2 inches ) they require less seva.
If they are bigger deities they should be offered 3 times bhoga because.. small dieities are like small babies. as the size grows you need to do more offerings. just like you have a friend at home or guest. You need to be offering breakfast, lunch and dinner.
Clothes also can be changed. You are so fortunate Radha Krishna chose your home to come.
But agian If the deities are big and you are not able to do any seva even offering water or tulsi patta.. minimum.. then you must donate.
I also purchases Shree Radha and Krishna deties in haste when I went to Vrindavan.. because my small deities have no features ( eyes nose) properly visible as they are too small and I was so much enamoured by seeing those vigraha at the stall..I instantly purchased. But later I had to donate to some other vaishnava who is doing seva properly ritualistically. I am so happy to see my deities safely taken care by the person. I know if we have already a set and buying other one will make the work double. We me lack the enthusiasm which we had at the start ...
It is better to give away to someone whom you are feeling... that can take care of them... or donate in a temple at vrindavan.
I wish I can ask you to post to me. I am missing my deities daily.. sometimes when I see the pictures that the devotee whom I donated posts... It makes me cry...I am blame myself that time.. I got Shree Krishna and Radha ji from Vrindavan... with so much bhaav and I donated.. I cry bitterly when I see the other devotee doing seva.. I even scold Radha Krishna.. agar tumko uske ghar hi jaana tha toh mere pass kyon aaye? Mere ghar se uske ghar kyon gaye.. but the devotee who took the vigrahas is doing nice seva.. so I am satisfied... the devotee felt so happy... he says his family plans for going to Vrindavan but somehow it never happens and when I offered Radha and Krishna's deities along with Braj raj and yamuna mitti.. the person felt his wishes were granted. he very intensely wished for going to vrindavan but if was not happening so Shree ji sent the deities thru me along with Braj raj and Yamuna ji's mitti .. the person felt he is most fortunate.. to recieve this gift from a vaishanvi and took it as a blessing from Shree Vrindavan dhaam and performs strictly all seva properly. I talked to him and his family they all love these vigrahas.. even though they have deities at home.. they took it and placed in at their altar. After seeing them do all the seva and decorations... along with their laddu gopal seva.. the seva became double for them.. I am feeling sad.. that.. Why I had to purchase and Why I had to donate? can't I also...........find another place for place them at my home?
couldn't I have done the seva for both deities.. Well I have 2 sets already. But them..Can't I accomodate them in my small altar..... I feel so bad to have donate. I chose them.. decorated them sob sob sob.
but Radha rani chose to go to their place. I am just happy to see them no and then.. seva being done by the devotee and his family. Finally I console myself.. that it is Shree ji's wish she wanted to go to that person's home and I just became a madhyam or a medium thru whom.. they got the deities from Shree Vrindavan dhaam. I even kept these vigrahas at the altar of Shree Radharaman and then gave it to them.. 
Should I be happy or sad?
I don't understand Shree Ji's leelas' .. haan woh bachha tha na woh usko bahut zyada icchha thi ki woh vrindvaan jaaye lekin parents and financial issues or something was not allowing them every time they plan and they cannot reach.. the boy intensely cried to be taken to Vrindvan. he told his parents and begged to go along with me to Vridavan... the parents said not now. he even begged his iskcon friend who was going to vrindavan to go along .. the parents said we shall all go together abhi nahi. I felt in this situation.. Radha and Krishna with braj ki mitti and prasadam came home to him ... somehow thru me. .. It was not planned so .. he felt very very fortunate.
anyhow... Please donate to some good family where they can take care of them more than you can.
All the very best
Hare Krishna.
@Stickman Hook The values you mentioned are very useful.