If I'm not speaking words with my mouth, I'm chanting in my mind now nearly all day, especially at home & at work (majority of my time) ... It's just a slightly audible, lips moving slightly type of thing. I have been chanting the mahamantra now for almost a year, but only for about 3 weeks have been chanting rounds of 108 ... the first few nights after beginning these rounds of 108, I had a dream of travelling down a road & each sign saying Hare, Krishna, Hare, Krishna, Hare, etc ... I woke from my dreamtime chanting. This happened consecutive nights, then I began waking at exactly 3:05 a.m. ... chanting ... I live in the USA, completely isolated from devotees, and have just this night spoke to my first devotee (in this lifetime) outside of delayed email inquiring about the local ISKCON group. Today, at work, I became extremely, nearly 'frighteningly' aware of the non-devotees in my life being estranged to me & (hard to describe), forming a subconscious resistance to me (tangible things as well). This includes 98% of : people from work, friends, recent-ended relationship partner, even family. I would like to know some devotees view on what I've described here & this is the only place I have any communication with ISKCON. Can anyone relate? I came home this evening threw myself on the floor in front of Krishna and begged for devotee communication, which happened instantly with a prabhuji from the USA, as well, as soon as I signed on here to ask about what went down today ... Any comment?
humble obeisances to Srila Prabhupada ... Hare Krishna!
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Hare krsna prabhuji,
All glories to Srila Prabhupad!!!
If you dont have direct access to devotees (or even if you do), at IDT you will find wonderful association of devotees who are willing to help and assist you in your spiritual journey.
It was very nice to read your original post, your realisation, your journey to ISKCON and also the responses from elevated devotees.
The way krsna arranges for His dear devotees to come closer to Him is very hard to comprehend. and why comprehend at all? If someone pulls you closer to happiness, do you actually require a reason or justification for that move? Dont we just love to be in that happiness. Likewise, krsna has pulled you closer. Embrace this change, embrace this path. Even if you lose everyone for this journey, feel isolated, called names, no body to care, thats still ok. Krsna is with you. Be with Him.
Your remembrance, forgetfulness and knowledge about Him comes directly from Him itself. You and I are just an instrument. He has given you the knowledge and remembrance about him through your realisations and I feel you are very very fortunate.
Look forward to your association on this forum.
Hare krsna.
After reading the comments beneath, I must say your journey in Krsna Consciousness is quite intriguing. I apologize for your situation- as I can relate to how it feels to be amidst of non devotees sometimes. Please don't take any offense, but I am surprised knowing how there are neither temples/devotees near to your location. I also live in the U.S, and can tell you that there are many Hare Krsna temples scattered, but you may have to take a closer look. Once you can find one, join the temple congregation and associate with many devotees there. However, from what you've describe of residing in quite a desolate location, I would suggest to continue devotee association virtually and practicing Bhakti yoga: devotional service, chanting etc. in this current circumstance. Your sincerity will please Krsna and soon you will be able to feel his presence and workings in your daily life. Krsna resides in everyone's heart as super soul and knows everything about everyone: acting as witness. The main point I hope to come across is continue devotional service- remaining blissful, and you will soon be surprised to see Krsna's personal reciprocation, and that is ultimate success for any devotee- associating with the Lord.
Please feel free to ask any questions.
I apologize if I wasn't able to help.
Your servant,
Tamal Krsna
Thank you for sharing prabhuji. I read with a lot of interest.
You are destined for this. You will go a long way in devotion in this birth itself.
Please be in touch and keep on sharing your experiences and realisations with us. I will be most interested.
I am intrigued to know how you got introduced to Krsna Consciousness. Will you share pls?
Hare Krsna Prabhuji,
PAMHO.
Welcome to our family of devotees across the world.
What I understood is that - you are destined to be on this path - the dreams are an indication of that. Definitely you have got some mercy from your past births, thats why you are able to take to it instinctively.
Regarding feeling isolated in work, family and relationships, it feels like this in the beginning, then one learns to balance all aspects of life, keeping Krsna in the centre.
I would recommend that you also chant on beads, that will help you keep track of how many rounds you are doing, it is helpful in all ways.
You could read some basic books like Chant & Be Happy, On the Way to Krsna, Perfect Questions & Perfect Answers, to get your basic doubts cleared. Please visit your nearest ISKCON temple and meet the devotees there, do darshan of their lordships, enjoy the remnants of Krsna's prasadam.
If you do everything I have mentioned, the way forward will come to you automatically.
Haribol,
Your servant,
Radha Rasamayi DD