Dear all devotee's,
Namaskar. I have born into a spiritual family. My late grandfather used to do lot of Pooja and chanting on beads. Even my father does lot of chanting. He remembers lot of mantra's. And, I also used to chant mantra's in my childhood but without understanding the subtle meaning. I was doing as I was told to do so. Eventually, I lost interest later and stopped as I could not get connected to it.
There was a lot of religious literature I have read during my early age. It fascinated me but seemed far from reality. And, later due to survival pressure, got more into other professional studies and started finding happiness in material things. Recently, I was undergoing lot of mental problems due to some disturbance at my work place. I was trying hard but things were not happening my way. It forced me look other way. There was something which was controlling everything. Fortunately, I started thinking on spiritual terms. On mind power, mental strength etc. My colleague introduced me to ISKCON. There I saw a very educated devotee, conducting a workshop on "Self discovery". It was a 7 days seminar and it totally changed my outlook. It forced to me think that this devotee who could have all material comforts in life ( He was serving in USA) but he abondoned all and returned to India and now living in Vrindavan with his family. There must be something which I am not able to see. My childhood memories revived. I understood the messages of all the teachings I had undergone. The meaning of beads, power of mantral's. The bigger picture of myself, soul, universe etc.
Now, I have adopted this way of living, atleast I am trying to be. I chant "Hare Krishna" mantra. I just don't count, I try to connect with GOD, with myself, I try that every word I mutter is heard in my ears. I get the internal happiness. A sort of sweet shivering inside. It is actually helping me in the mind control. A tool I was longing for a while.
But I have a different outlook on GOD now. We all are similar to a frog who is living in the well. My vision is limited to my intelligence and perspective only. I am an Indian so I think GOD must be looking like INDIAN. Similary a Chinese, an American, a Japanese would be thinking on the same terms. But GOD is one. One to all. He may have many forms. Like there are numerous rivers in this world, in different countries, but all fall in one place, OCEAN. GOD is like Ocean and we all must gear to merge with OCEAN. Our existence is dependent on water so all these scientists searching water in the universe. They think where there is water there is life. They can't think beyond that Sounds similar to that frog, right? An intelligent species but not more than frog in the well.
Name of Krishna is a river for me, with whom I get connected, associated, will take me to this vast OCEAN where I will be able to enjoy everlasting happiness, devoid of this material world.
Please don't misunderstand me. Spirituality is a very personal subject but I have shared my feellings.