Hare Krishna dandwat pranam
All glories to Srila Prabhupada
Actually I am student and also practicing KC from 3 ½ years by krishnas mercy I also get vaishnav sanga every weekend. I am also getting tattva knowledge by our shiksha guru from weekly classes.
Now from beginning onwards I was against this modern day concept of attraction towards opposite gender and breakup or all stuff, I was happy practicing bhakti and doing studies but out of nowhere gradually I got deeply attached to a girl with clean and good intention due to her overall character, behaviour and good will (I haven't conveyed her anything) but due to this my focus is being disturbed, I am completely thinking of her day and night, and cannot get out of her thoughts but (I am preparing for competitive exam) there I am facing issue in focusing for longer hour and feeling mentally exhausted, even while chanting I cannot get over her thoughts 😭 which is a concerning issue.
I started to hear hari katha so that I can get over her thoughts but still I am in that same zone itself. I cannot directly share this to my shiksha guru. Plz help me, I want to concentrate on bhakti and my studies but (aasakti) towards her is not going and that's why "I am not getting the same interest in studies and in bhakti like before"
Plz 🙏 🥺 help me get over this, plz guide what shall I do. Plz forgive me for any mistake. Hare krishna.
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Hare Krishna,
That is a test for you from Krishna.
Hare Krishna mataji
Thank you for the reply. Can you plz guide me how can I get over this and reroute myself on the normal track. I don't want to fall in this during my competitive exam preparation I want to focus on studies along with bhakti.
This all episode happened only to test you.
Because you were adamant look at that line-
"Now from beginning onwards I was against this modern day concept of attraction towards opposite gender and breakup or all stuff."
so, Lord wanted to really test you are you really so great and you failed.
Continue studies. At you age, and the present age of kali even an ordinary girl will look like aprasa.
hehhe. :-)
ye maya ka prabhaav hai bete. isse upar utho. Abhi tumhari life badi hai.. aise bahut saare aakarshan tumhare mann ko satayenge. Uthal puthal karengi.
One time Narad muni also thought he is best devotee as he can tolerate any type of Maya he got control over maya.
Immediately was tested by Sri Hari. I imaginary world was instantly created and Narad muni entered into it and saw a beautiful girl getting into Swayamvar samaroha. Narad muni is a Mahajan and this katha is just for knowing the importance of pride when we start feeling pride Vishnu sends Maya to test us time and again to keep check our pride.
Narad muni felt what is this life I am leading.. I must marry this girl by taking part in svyamvar and wining her hand. If not I am a loser.
Narad muni first went to the palace of the king and he was greated nicely there by the king. The daughter was introduced to him and the daughter came to Narad muni ji and took his blessing and Narad muni felt she thinks that I am ascetic and she is not feeling any attraction... looking at me. This is because of my sage ke kapde. I must change the dress to normal beings and go if she can feel attracted to me. Then also the girl recognises her and does pranamas. Then narad muni immediately go to Vaikuntha said Narayana pls. give me your beauty and charm as I am thinking of settling down with a beeutiful girl. But the problem is everytime the girl sees mee she is thinking I am the sage narada. I wish to win her heart. I want to look like Sri Hari .. as every girl is attracted to Sri Hari's face. I would be most grateful if you can give me your Hari's face. Lord Hari smiled and said Thathasthu!!!
that made him so happy that he didn't even check his face in a mirror rushed to participate in swayamvar.
In the swayamvar behind narad muni was stading shree Hari himself. He didn't even notice it.
The girl ( who was none other than Sri Laxmi ji) came to narad muni.. Narada muni bent his neck to recieve the garland as he was quite sure she will surely select him. But as soon as he bent his neck the girl put the garland into the neck of Lord Hari who was standing behind Shree Narada Muni.
This made Narada enraged looked back it was Sri Narayan bhagwan swayam standing and smiling.. looking at his face everyone started to laugh there. Narad muni ran out look his face into the water there he appeared like a "MONKEY"
and the next moment he was at Vaikuntha and Narayana was seated on the Aaadisesha with Laxmi ji. Hey Narada.. wake up wake up said Lord.
Lord was this a dream or your maaya that made me see all this. Lord said it is my maya to make you realize that you got a little pride that you are best devotee and you have conquered the maya shakti of ME.
Lord but I had requested you to give me your face in that dream like illusion also. And you had given me a MONKEY FACE?
Lord said yes as you have just asked give me Hari face.
and "Hari" in sanskrit has another meaning that is a Monkey.
Narada felt bad he said so you have Tricked me.
I curse you that from today you and your wife Sri Laxmi be seperated whenever YOU be in the material world take avatara.. Only a Vanara ( monkey) whom people all laughed at today will make it possible to make you meet your wife back.
Lord said.. hmm.. this is going as per my plan as well. Even your curse is boon in disguise Narada to me. As per what you said.
Next life I and laxmi are going to be on the Earth as Sri Rama and Sita devi and as you said Monkey will only help us come together again. Thathasthu! jaisi aapki marzi.
and somehow in every avatar I see Lord is always seperated from HIS beloved.
Thats a leela and Lord wanted it to be like that.
So, this is just a leela of Lord.
Abhi time hai in sab cheezon ke liye. When the right time comes you will not feel this much agitation in mind.
Just focus on studies and complete ur education find a job a wife who is perfect will come to your life as per destiny. Don't rush for somethings which was not in your destiny right now.
Hare Krishna.