sa ittham atyulbana-karna-banair
bhratuh puro marmasu tadito 'pi
svayam dhanur dvari nidhaya mayam
gata-vyatho 'yad uru manayanah
sah -- he (Vidura); ittham -- like this; ati-ulbana -- severely; karna -- ear; banaih -- by the arrows; bhratuh -- brother's; purah -- from the palace; marmasu -- in the core of the heart; taditah -- being afflicted; api -- in spite of; svayam -- he himself; dhanuh dvari -- bow on the door; nidhaya -- keeping; mayam -- the exte