One of Prabhupada's sannyasi disciples, Hanuman, had fallen down from the sannyasa standard and had married. Such a thing had never before happened in ISKCON. But now, on Prabhupada's first day in Mexico, Hanuman, dressed as a householder, came to see his spiritual master.
After the crowd of guests had left Prabhupada's room, only Hanuman and a few senior men remained. "Srila Prabhupada," Hanuman began, "Lord Caitanya Mahaprabhu had one disciple in the renounced order, Chota Haridasa, whom He rejected from His association because he became too much lusty after a woman . I was also one of your sannyasa disciples, and I too became lusty after a woman. I was wondering if you have also rejected me from your association."
A heavy silence followed as everyone looked at Prabhupada, who sat with his head down. After a long pause, Prabhupada looked up at Hanuman and said quietly, "Lord Caitanya is God. He can spread this movement all over the world in one second without the help of anyone if He likes. I am not God. I am simply a servant of God. I require so much assistance to help me spread Krsna consciousness all over the world. If someone renders even some small service to help me, I am eternally indebted to him. You have rendered so much assistance to me, how could I reject you?"
The devotees were moved, amazed at the depth of Srila Prabhupada's compassion. Then Hanuman began to tell Srila Prabhupada about his family, about his son named Bhaktivedanta.
"That is not very good." Srila Prabhupada shook his head. "Sometimes you may have to chastise your child, and you should not be chastising your guru."
Hanuman became a little disturbed. "But Srila Prabhupada," he said, "we have already grown accustomed to calling him that. What will we call him now?"
Prabhupada thought and then explained that actually it was all right because his name was Bhaktivedanta dasa. "Just like we name all our disciples Krsna dasa," Prabhupada said. "Not Krsna, but servant of Krsna. Just like you are not Hanuman, but servant of."
- From "Prabhupada-lila" by HH Satsvarupa Dasa Goswami
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