Since last one week or so I was trying to read NOI as I realised that even after reading it in the past I don't know much about it, beyond the surface level reading. I downloaded various lectures by senior devotees and downloaded few notes posted on iskcondesiretree and was unsuccessfully trying to learn the `deeper' meaning of each verse.
Today morning as I sat again to learn the first and second verse I opened pocketveda on my ipad and as I started reading the verse first and then instead of going back to my downloaded notes I felt like again reading Srila Prabhupada's purport, after reading 3 paras of second verse's purport the meaning came in a flash to me, I was shocked the way I was able to absorb it.
I realised that atleast for me reading Srila Prabhupada's books are best way forward. My hankering for reading previous acaraya's books came down drastically today morning as I realise that Srila Prabhupa has given us jist of all vedic literature. If I understand them well then may be in future I can understand other books better.
I was hopping like a monkey from one book to another and from one lecture to another. I let my own mind and intelligence take the decision over faith in instructions of my diksha and siksha gurus to read only Srila Prabhupada's books and do not read too many books. I beg forgiveness at their lotus feet and promise to first read all of Srila Prabhupada's books diligently and beg all vaisanava to help me develop faith in Guru, Shastra and Sadhu. Today I again realised that using my own intelligence I can't reach anywhere.
All Glories to Srila Prabhupada.
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