HARE KRSNA
Please accept my humble obeisance,
I started my KC journey back mid 2023 since then i chanted 16rounds daily, wakeup 3:30am, eating only parasdam , doing home dieties seva, listening 1 hr lecture daily. My father is narcissts he always used to blame me and my mom for everrything he always verbally abusing, mental torture, blame gaming, fight daily for the reason we are even connect or responsible directly or indirectly but he always doing same thing. He also doing gender discrimination he never use to my brother any thing whatever he do whether he fail in school , stealing money frm mandir or having girlfriend or shouting on my mom anything , but my father blindfold when he do anything but if I or my mom do annything which they don't like or not according to theirs will, then they just startiing abusing , cursing , throwing food plate. He thinkng himself That HE IS CONTROLLER, whatever we have because of him , without him we are nothing and he always wanting me and my mom to be a puppet whenever whereverr whateverr he want to do he can do with us and we do everything without any questioning with smile face.
ALSO,
Since we started KC , we get to know many thing who is REAL SUPREME,HIS WILL, HIS MERCY AND EVERYTHING and now the things impacting little bit less to us, this makes him more and more angry that his words are not affecting us as it used to be that's why now he started fight abusisng even little and little things or i would say everything, for eg - today i am sitting in chair and just streching my arms and legs he came and start shouting " chair beth k streching krne s paise khtm hojte tu t chhahti hi yahi h etc etc etc" , i was like what's wrong with him. and many more things like this...
SO, I WANT HELP HOW CAN I MAKE MYSELF THAT THESE THINGS DOEOSN'T IMPACT ME, one things i deprived from that is "DEVOTEE ASSOICATION" physically going temple is not possible he just start fighting and i have no one to discuss these things and seeking some advices, me and my mom we both used to motivate each other in our diffcult times , but deep down i know she suffer a lot and she have no one to share these things she also do everything what i do
DUE TO THIS MY STUDY ALSO IMPACT SEVERELY, i am currently preparing for government exam but didn't succeed in last 3 attempts , i am only gradute and no source for income earning
SO, PLEASE GUIDE ME HOW I CAN OVERCOME MY SITUATION
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