Merciful Appearance of Lord Nrsimhadev in Our Life
Dear Brothers and Sisters,
Please accept our humble pranams! All glories to Srila Prabhupada and Srila Gurudev !!
Recently we had gone through a real nightmare which I would like to share with all of you as it is still fresh in my memory. On 29th May 2011, my wife (HG Shilpa devi dasi) who was at the 7 month of her pregnancy was hospitalized. At 2 am she had severe bleeding and I had to drive her to the hospital, which was 60 miles away in a neighbouring country. Imagine driving someone for 1.5 hours that too at any point this person could bleed to death, but my wife insisted that she should be dropped at this private hospital and not at any other hospital. For sure, Paramatma guided her the best direction as it proved that it was the best hospital and most probably both she and the baby would have died if taken in other hospitals. Our beloved spiritual master H H Mahavishnu Goswami Maharaj always says, "Krishna works in miraculous ways."
My wife told me later that she was convinced that she was going to die and she accepted this fact also, as one of the Western astrologer had told her long time back, that it is possible that she will die during operation. While driving as well as in the hospital, until the moment of operation, my wife constantly offered prayers to Lord Nrsimhadev. When we reached the hospital the doctor examined the baby and noticed that the heart beat of the baby has almost stopped and he immediately asked for preparation for surgical intervention. Somehow again by Krishna's mercy, I was watching the heart beat in the monitor. I noticed that the beat was coming back, in a very sober state. I told the doctor (who was in panic), "Please wait. Don't take them to surgery. I saw the heart beat was coming back." I don't know how this is possible (must be the Paramatma in doctor's heart). Interestingly, the doctor listened to my advice and he said, "Ok. We will wait; but monitor her heart beat for 24 hours and so it happened that these 24 hours were like Lord's blessing time, to prepare the baby for premature delivery, to stabilize her breathing etc. Next day at 4am the bleeding started profusely again. The baby's heart beat again became unstable. This time, my wife told the doctor, "It is time to take me to the surgery room." She called me and said, "I am going to be operated." I remember driving to the hospital at 4am and I prayed so intensely to the Lord, as never before in my life.
After the operation my wife told me something amazing. She told me that just before they gave her the sleeping shot at the operation table, she also prayed very sincerely and intensely to the Lord Nrsimhadev. She told me, "At that time, I fully concentrated my mind on the prayers, so much so that I forgot everything - home, my 3 year old daughter, baby, you. I saw death coming and I just concentrated my thought on the Lord. When I felt asleep I noticed that I left my body and I saw a brightest light I have never ever seen in my life. Out of that light Lord Nrsimhadev appeared. Pointing at my dead body full of blood He told me, "Do you see what has remained from your
material life?" I looked at my dead body and understood what the Lord was saying. I told, 'My Lord I am ready to die and You do as you like; But please accept my request.
I feel I am not pure enough and I have left my young daughter (Mira age 3) at home.' After few moments of silence, Lord Nrsimhadev with most blissful smile told me, "I will give you a second chance." and disappeared together with this great radiance." My wife Shilpa, aged 39, is a Muslim by birth and we live in Kosovo, Yugoslavia. Few years ago she came in touch with Srila Prabhupada books. She got brief association of our beloved Guru Maharaj who had compassionately given her shelter and had blessed her with the name Shilpa devi dasi. She chants her rounds and has just basic knowledge of the shastras. But by the inconceivable, causeless mercy of Srila Gurudev, Srila Prabhupada and Lord Narasimhadev, she was able to get a second chance and both she and our second baby Maya, were able to survive. Next day the whole medical staff came to see her in disbelief. Many senior doctors were surprised to see them alive and told her, "99% of the patients die in your condition!" But they did not know that Lord Nrsimhadev wanted them to live. Please remember that there is no difference between Lord, His holy names. They are indeed same in identity. This incident again reminds us the truth in the Srimad Bhagavtam verse 1.6 25 (Maharaj's favourite verse)
Sri Sri Prahlad Narasinghadev Bhagavan ki Jai !
etaavad uktvo pararaama tan mahad / bhutam nabholingam alingam ishvaram aham ca tasmai mahataam mahiyase / sheershnaava naamam vidadhe anukampitah
"Then that Supreme authority, personified by sound and unseen by eyes, but most wonderful, stopped speaking. Feeling a sense of gratitude, I offered my obeisances unto Him, bowing my head."
In the purport to the above verse His Divine Grace very nicely says - "That the Personality of Godhead was not seen but only heard does not make any difference. The Personality of Godhead produced the four Vedas by His breathing, and He is seen and realized through the transcendental sound of the Vedas. Similarly, the Bhagavad-Gita is the sound representation of the Lord, and there is no difference in identity. The conclusion is that the Lord can be seen and heard by persistent chanting of the transcendental sound."
Below are some of the lessons which I learnt from the above experience.
1. In good or bad times - always have faith in Lord. In the pretext of not being an advanced devotee, no association, less sadhana etc, we should not lose faith on Lord's mercy. Just go on with devotional service. Lord will
definitely come. Do not doubt.
2. At the times of death or any other calamities, even though we may have so many friends and family members, people will not help us. If some one is there to help us, so far so good. But whether anyone is there or not, only Lord is our sure and permanent shelter. So instead of having unnecessary expectations from others, just depend only on Lord and offer Him sincere prayers. It is FREE and you can perform it ANYWHERE in this material cosmos,
what to speak of this planet ?
Our daughter Maya (devotees named her Yoga Maya devi dasi) is expected to come out of the hospital soon. For more than a month now she is inside the baby incubator. To everybody's surprise, she never had any difficulties even though she was prematurely born in 7 months. From the very first day, she breathed without machine support and never had any difficulties even though she is fed with artificial milk. As Maharaj would always say and show in his personal life, "If Krishna wants somebody to live, that person will live." We humbly request all of you to bless her that she becomes servant of the servant of the Lord and request you to please continue with the wonderful contributions to Granthraj group.
Granthraj Srimad Bhagavatam ki Jai !
Srila Prabhupada ki Jai ! Srila Mahavishnu Goswami Maharaj Gurudev ki Jai !
We request your blessings to remain under the protection and shelter of Srila Prabhupada and Srila Gurudev.
Thank you very much,
Your most fallen servants,
Muralidhara Krishna das, Shilpa devi dasi, Mira Bai devi dasi, Yoga-Maya
devi dasi, Kosovo (ex.Yugoslavian state), Europe.