Gender

Female

Location

Lucknow

Birthday:

March 1

Name / Initiated name

Akansha

Daily number of rounds of Hare Krishna mahamantra.

4

When, where and how did you come into contact with the Hare Krishna Movement?

Online youtube

Name the nearest or most frequently Visited ISKCON temple/ centre and name few of the devotees whom you know.

No there is no iskcon temple

Please describe yourself so that other like minded devotees can find you.

My name is Akansha. I’m 20 years old and currently preparing for the NEET UG examination. But to be completely honest, right now I feel completely lost — mentally, emotionally, and spiritually. I’m struggling to study. I find myself stuck in a cycle of laziness, procrastination, and distraction. No matter how much I try to push myself, I’m unable to focus. The motivation I once had feels like it has faded away. I wake up with the intention to do better, but by the end of the day, I feel defeated and disappointed in myself. It's not just the academics. Even spiritually, I feel distant. I want to grow spiritually, to feel connected — but I feel like I’m not making any progress there either. I feel stuck between who I want to become and the person I am right now. It’s a painful place to be in — feeling the weight of expectations, yet lacking the strength to meet them. I know deep down that I don’t want to give up. But I genuinely need help. I need guidance, structure, and support — something or someone to help me realign with my purpose and bring me back to discipline, hope, and inner peace. I’m not okay right now, but I want to be. I just don’t know how to get there alone.

What are your expectations from this community?

I want to grow spritualy and make some spritual friends

Describe any specific service you would love to offer to Lord Krishna & His devotees?

To Lord Krishna — or whoever is truly listening, I don’t know if You are really there. I don’t even know if I truly believe. If I speak honestly, there is a deep absence within me — a lack of faith, of love, of surrender. I feel empty in the very places where I wish I could feel full and alive. I see people speak of devotion, of feeling Your presence, of experiencing divine love — and I wonder why I can't feel the same. Why my heart feels disconnected. Why I feel so distant, even when I want to come closer. But even in this emptiness, even in this doubt… there's a small part of me — fragile but sincere — that believes You will show me the right path. That somehow, even in my weakness, You see me. That even though my love is imperfect, You are patient with me. I don't have strength, or discipline, or clarity right now. But I want to be guided. I want to be led back to truth. Even if I cannot fully believe in You yet — I believe that You can believe in me. Please show me the way — gently, silently, however You choose. I'm listening, even through the silence.