hare krishna everyone
i want to say something about myself.. i am not able to control my self in any thing. i daily think that i will do this thing today take bath in early morning at 4am but never succeeded in my task...... my nature is very rude people start confessing about me on social sites...... one boy whome i dont like and never talk to him for last several month, write the following confession about me...
Mr Sha**a making friends is good thing but after poking your nose that is not good thing. You do not make friend. You only try to dominate on the people that's why your friendship is temporary and everyone abuse you behind. You are also trying to make a wall between me and my good friend whom that I have given a promise on the New Year eve that is I will do any kind of help when he will ask. You tried to snatch my friend but I will not to be successful you in this bullshit game. Whole batch knows Who Am I and Whom am I talking about and I am not caring for you and others that what they will think. I am doing this only for my friendship and my friend I will be with you always. Sometimes I make fun of that friend but this was only to create cheerful environment. If you felt hurt by anything which was done by me I am really sorry for that from true heart...
And my friend I am not angry with you for anything.
Sha**a don't think that I am enemy of you. We were good friends in past and hoping for this in future also.
Waiting for a positive response from my friend and from sha**a to change his behaviour a little bit.
And one thing I am not DRUNK at this time.
i dont know why people always think bad about me if i m very nice from heart...
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Dear Prabhu,
Please accept my humble obeisances.
All glories to Srila Prabhupada.
I heard the following in ISKCON Guru's lectures: if we are accused of something we did not do or somebody thinks bad of us without a reason, it is because in the past (past lifetime) we actually did something bad, but got away without any punishment.
So anyway, it's some bad karma if we have problems in relationships, people thinking bad of us without reason, it may make many things difficult in our lives. But it is in no way disqualification to do devotional service. Even if we actually have demoniac qualities, it is not an impediment to do devotional service, what to speak if people just think badly. Some of the greatest devotees, such as Prahlada Maharaja, Bali Maharaja, Vritrasura were apparently born among and associated with demons.
I can give an advice from my own experience, because I was several times in such situations, people thinking very bad about me without a good reason. It greatly helps to worship Lord Nrisimhadeva and Lord Varahadeva. These incarnations of the Lord appeared for the sake of Their devotees who were harassed by demons. So if we are trying to perform devotional service, but harassed by some demoniac surroundings or influences or some demoniac qualities in our own heart, we can always take shelter of these incarnations of the Lord. Worshiping includes reading about Their pastimes in the Srimad Bhagavatam, having Their pictures, if possible visiting Their temples or somehow contributing to Their worship. This really helped me and still helps to remove many obstacles from my devotional life. And of course, when They respond to our prayers and are ready to destroy our obstacles, we should not hold unto such obstacles!
And another thing is that if we are fortunate to meet devotees and a spiritual master who can see a little spark of devotion in our heart despite of all our disqualifications and out of their causeless mercy gradually fan it into a big flame of more and more devotion and service, then all our difficulties will be finished.
Hope this answer helps you in some way...
Your humble servant