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The kaviraja asked Srila Prabhupada how he was feeling this morning.  Srila Prabhupada said, "I want to die.  Someone said I have been poisoned."  I asked who said that; and Prabhupada answered, "I do not know, but it is said."

The kaviraja came with Balarama Misra, a priest who wanted to offer one thousand tulasi leaves to Lord Narayana for Prabhupada's recovery.  Prabhupada asked that he do this at our temple, but he wanted us to give him the tulasi leaves and he would offer them where he lived.  So we sent the leaves in the afternoon upon Srila Prabhupada's request.

Balarama Misra had asked for money for repair of a Caitanya Mahaprabhu temple.  Prabhupada required an estimate before he would give anything.  Balarama Misra stated that if Prabhupada fixed this temple, his body would also become repaired.  We were not very pleased with such dealings, that in such a critical condition, Prabhupada was being pushed by someone.

I read to Srila Prabhupada a report from Jitarati of his recent visit to China, in which Jitarati concluded that the Chinese were not interested in, or ready to accept, Krsna consciousness.  Prabhupada commented, "China has sacrificed everything.  What is their aim?"  I described a classless society, in which the citizens had all their economic needs provided.  Prabhupada lamented, "How human society is falling down! No. Don't try for China. Sa eva gokarah."

I asked Srila Prabhupada again about the poisoning.  He explained, "These kind of symptoms are seen where a man is poisoned.  Not that I am poisoned.  I read something."  I said, "We cannot allow anyone else to cook for you."  Prabhupada agreed.  I mentioned that one Sankaracarya had been poisoned.  Srila Prabhupada said, "My Guru Maharaja also."  "You were so merciful," I stated.  "You took prasadam cooked by so many different people."

Prabhupada warned, "That should be stopped."

A letter from M.M. De, which I read to Srila Prabhupada, regarded his monthly allowance and the Panchashil flat.  The letter was written in a very legal style, and it appeared to have underlying motives.

Tamala Krsna Maharaja: He is very intelligent.

Prabhupada:  Very, very intelligent.  Our point is, if he behaves rightly, he'll get all facility.  Otherwise, only 250 rupees.

Tamala Krsna Maharaja: Very, very intelligent boy.

Prabhupada: And I am his father.  In his childhood, he was so first-class.  He loves me very much.

Bhakti-Caru Maharaja: When we go back to Calcutta, should we meet him?

Prabhupada: If he comes, we can invite him.

Tamala Krsna Maharaja: You traded two sons for ten thousand sons.

Prabhupada: Yes.

Tamala Krsna Maharaja: And we traded ten thousand fathers for one father.

Prabhupada: Thank you.  You needed father like me.  Although you got father, you were fatherless.  Janme janme prabhu sei.  Father means who takes complete care.

Tamala Krsna Maharaja: Upendra is very good at taking care of you.

Prabhupada: Oh yes.  Good nurse.  And he is neat and clean.  That is required for a nurse.  I know from the very beginning.  Therefore I asked you, call Upendra!  Whatever money he requests, you must give him.  When M.M. De inquires, "Why you have changed the address?" then you reply, "We want to be safe-either to your home or to bank.  If you give the bank address, then we send it there."

Tamala Krsna Maharaja: Actually, I wrote him a very nice, simple letter, but he replied to it....

Prabhupada: That is his fault.

Later in the day, we discussed Hare Krishna Land.

Prabhupada: When you build the godown, it will enhance very much.

I mentioned that the third story on the buildings also enhanced their use and beauty.

Prabhupada: That was my scheme, that we should not give full control to the tenants.  You take four brahmanas from South India, four from Vrndavana, and four local.

When Srila Prabhupada signed the will amendment, his deteriorating  eyesight made it difficult for him to see the document he was signing.  As a precaution, therefore, he wrote first before signing, "This is the amendment to my will."  I had placed his hand where he was to sign; but when he began writing, I was in anxiety, not understanding why he would not sign but, instead, was writing something else, until I read what he had written.

At night, the kaviraja examined Srila Prabhupada and found the pulse to be very weak.  Prabhupada has felt cold all day, asking to be covered by a quilt.  This condition was due to so little blood.  Though he has taken about 800 cc of liquid, much of it was in the form of medicine.

Biographies and Glorifications of Srila Prabhupada-TKG's Diary: Prabhupada's Final Days-November 9^th -Tamala Krsna Goswami