Hare Krsna
Please accept my humble obeisance. All glories to Srila Prabhupada
At 4:00 a.m., Srila Prabhupada called for me and Srila Prabhupada said, "I think whatever money you are giving Vrindaban, he will spoil in business. They are getting together about two thousand rupees. So let them chant Hare Krsna and eat and sleep. He has no business brain. He should not be given a farthing. The postal receipts may be given to the respective members."
Then Prabhupada had me call Vrindaban and he spoke very strongly to him. "Whatever capital you have, do what you can. No more help from this side. We shall not help you. No future hope. You are not businessman. Don't keep any assistant. Whatever little money you have got, live peacefully. Live in that house. I may not live seven years. You will and you enjoy. Trust no future, no matter. You have been given thousands of rupees for travelling and not eight rupees in orders. All widow pension. They will also get some widow pension.
"In a city like Calcutta, to get two thousand rupees and live in such a place is no joke. So what is the use of doing business if you can't do it properly? They are selling ten thousand, twenty thousand Bhagavata Darsanas. You cannot sell even one. As father, it is my duty that you don't starve or loiter in the street. So far business-it is speculation. It is not money for that." Vrindaban was coughing. "Even your health is not very good. If you get money without working, what is the use to bother about business which you can't do?"
Thus, Srila Prabhupada chastised his former son. Later in the morning before departing, Vrindaban again petitioned Srila Prabhupada for money. This time Srila Prabhupada was fiery and Srila Prabhupada said, "Absolutely not!"
After he had gone, Prabhupada told me, "Henceforward, deal with M.M. De. He is intelligent. This son can't do. He'll get 250 rupees. Explain to M.M., 'This is the arrangement. You have direct correspondence with me.' When you write to M.M. De, show me the letter."
Panca-dravida Swami observed, "Srila Prabhupada, your voice is much stronger now." Prabhupada answered, "May Krsna save me. If you like, you may all bless me. You are Vaisnavas. If you bless, you can all save me. I have no desire. I wanted to serve Caitanya Mahaprabhu's movement. That was my only desire. No profit making. We have got immense opportunity in Mayapur and Bombay. Anyone is welcome to come there and cultivate. If we get Home Minister's sanction...." I said, "We have an eternal debt to repay you." Prabhupada countered, "I have eternal debt to you. It is Krsna's desire. Who could ever be served like this by sons." Remembering his former sons, he lamented, "Such rascal sons."
Prabhupada had a cough that gradually increased as the day progressed, perhaps because of taking Horlicks in the morning. The swelling also having increased, the kaviraja applied some herbal medicine. Earlier in the morning, he had brought an assistant, a kaviraja from Rangaji Mandir, who would help him to distill medicine and who would attend Prabhupada in his absence. The kaviraja had a dream in which Prabhupada was taking medicine and getting better, so he decided to stay a few more days.
Srila Prabhupada said, "We shall construct a Yoga-pitha Bhaktivedanta Hall, and we have a book stall there. For the last fifty years, they could not do. And Sridhara Maharaja could not finish. Just spend five thousand, ten thousand rupeees there. In this way, serve Gauranga Mahaprabhu. How much we will get from the ten lakhs of rupees per month? Bhavananda-spend it nicely. Life, money, intelligence, and words. So I am an old man. My life has no value. You are young men, intelligent." "Srila Prabhupada," I declared, "you have complete intelligence." "Complete knowledge can be claimed by Krsna only," he responded. "Not even by Narayana. Everything is coming from Krsna."
For lunch, Srila Prabhupada ate three spoons of sukta, two spoons of cabbage sabji, and other things. In the evening, Prabhupada asked for parathas and fried eggplant. After tasting one bite, however, he rejected it, saying, "No taste. It is desired, but no taste. The juice has taste. Now if I can just take some milk, I will become strong."
Prabhupada translated in the evening, giving the summary study of Chapter Fourteen.
Biographies and Glorifications of Srila Prabhupada-TKG's Diary: Prabhupada's Final Days-October 30th-Tamala Krsna Goswami
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