Hare Krsna
Please accept my humble obeisance. All glories to Srila Prabhupada
Prabhupada asked about our future itinerary, as though he was beginning to think of moving again.
When Jayatirtha Prabhu was about to leave, Srila Prabhupada cried, thanking him for improving everything here so much since the time mismanaged so many things.
Srila Prabhupada's emotions are much more noticeable recently. Whereas before, he would always check his sentiments, now he no longer does so completely, perhaps because of his physical weakness. He cries frequently and with only slight provocation. The tears that flow down his face appear like jewels of love of God. Being fully saturated with love for Krsna, he may at any moment begin to weep, perhaps from hearing kirtana, seeing the Deity, or hearing of some devotee's service. He is no longer able to contain these emotions. The tears flowing from his eyes and making a small stream down his cheeks cause him to seem even more beautiful. At other times, he makes a long, deep sound, like "Hmm," not because of any physical pain, because he says he is quite all right. He is experiencing transcendental ecstasy, and these are some of the symptoms that appear as he floats in the ocean of love of God. All glories to Srila Prabhupada, who has inaugurated the sankirtana movement of Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu and who is enabling the devotees to relish these drops of transcendental love of God, which now pour forth from his person!
Balavanta was in Washington arranging for the green card, and it appeared that there would be no difficulty obtaining it. All the officials whom he contacted were friendly and were welcoming Srila Prabhupada. This I communicated to His Divine Grace, in whose eyes tears instantly welled up. With a choked voice, he spoke, "America has been so good to me to give me money, men, everything. I have no designation that this is my country. But because they have given me so much facility, I cannot forget my obligation to them. I want to make them happy and, through them, the whole world. They have welcomed so many big men for good causes. On my part, there is no fault. I was ill, so I could not return in time." Srila Prabhupada sat on his massage mat, with only his kaupina on his thin, frail body.
Prabhupada tasted only a little maha-prasadam for lunch. He had Abhirama help him. Abhirama was certainly blossoming with this opportunity for such personal service. Indeed, we all were. Srila Prabhupada appears always to need our assistance now. In actuality, it is an unusual mercy of our spiritual master to allow us so to develop our love for him, and thus for Krsna. When Prabhupada wants to sit up now, he wraps his arms around our neck and allows us to pull him up. By such intimate contact, we are making so much advancement. While he is being fed, Srila Prabhupada has Abhirama place the food sometimes in his mouth and sometimes on a spoon, which he then manipulates himself.
Prabhupada's mind works so transcendentally! No one can possibly understand how the acarya thinks. Having thought of America with such love, Srila Prabhupada again thinks of India-Mayapur, Vrndavana, and Bombay-and how to protect them. He called for me and Srila Prabhupada said, "In Mayapur, the communists are trying to grab the property. And in Vrndavana, some Gosvamis. It is American property. The Americans have accepted this religion and developed these properties for visiting on pilgrimage. The American government should give protection to our property in Bombay, Mayapur, and Vrndavana. We should not allow anyone to grab by tricks."
I gave Srila Prabhupada a report of the harvest at Gita-nagari. Again, he began to cry because the land of America was presenting her bountiful wealth to Krsna. "Let all the American people come there and live freely. People can grow food. Why should they kill animals? The poor animals. We shall give bhagavata-bhakti."
The Bhaktivedanta Institute sent a publication of Sadaputa's monograph, of which Prabhupada had me read sections. It was very scientifically presented, and Srila Prabhupada was very satisfied.
Siddha-svarupananda Maharaja sent a telegram, in which he prayed for Prabhupada's recovery and for his presence in Hawaii. He asked for Prabhupada's mercy on the Hawaiians and himself. This brought tears to Prabhupada's eyes and he replied, "I love you because there may be some misunderstanding, but you are sincere."
Biographies and Glorifications of Srila Prabhupada-TKG's Diary: Prabhupada's Final Days-September 3rd-Tamala Krsna Goswami
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