Hare Krsna
Please accept my humble obeisance. All glories to Srila Prabhupada
This morning when Prabhupada awoke, I sat behind him on the bed, lightly massaging his back. Then I asked, "Srila Prabhupada, what have you been thinking of the past few days?"
Prabhupada understood my question perfectly and replied, "I have been thinking that if I have to live for six months, until February, 1978, why not die now? Pariksit Maharaja had only seven days."
"But the astrologer said you could live beyond the six months," I encouraged.
"That depends on Krsna's desire," Prabhupada countered.
"Do you have any indication whether Krsna wants you to live?" My head was very close to Srila Prabhupada's back, and I waited with bated breath for his answer.
"The indication is that He wants me to live."
I could not check my crying when I heard this, and I murmured, "That is wonderful, Srila Prabhupada."
"This movement is revolutionary. All over the world I have enemies; and there are friends too. They wanted to say God is dead."
"I was thinking, if by assistance of Pradyumna, you could translate. Now you are inactive; and throughout your life, you have always been active."
"Therefore, I have been thinking, what is the use of living?"
"With Pradyumna's help. Now your eyes are failing you, but his eyes are good. He could read aloud the acaryas' commentaries, and you could consolidate them."
"Yes, I am hoping like that" Srila Prabhupada said.
I wanted to know how much to mention about Prabhupada's condition. "Should the devotees in the West be informed of your condition and the astrologer's report?"
"No," Prabhupada replied.
A report received from Hamsaduta Maharaja included a very strong debate between himself and one scientist, Dr. Kovoor, in which Hamsaduta emerged triumphant. This news very much pleased His Divine Grace. I read it in the morning which, along with the afternoon mealtime, seemed the best time for reading correspondence to Srila Prabhupada. The late afternoon did not seem as good a time.
Biographies and Glorifications of Srila Prabhupada-TKG's Diary: Prabhupada's Final Days-August 13th-Tamala Krsna Goswami
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