MY MOST PRECIOUS KARMIC BAG

I have a very huge karmic bag bond on my back,

Rusted, dark dust coated and grime filled.

Yet I can see its contents for the bag is full and spilling,

Numerous humiliations, allegations baseless,

Hurt, despair, pain and sadness,

Failures galore, an uncontrolled mind swaying everywhere,

Few beautiful silken threads of success and happiness,

Beyond this , am unable to fathom its other contents,

My dearest vithu amma , you have on many occasions,

Gently reminded me of unloading this bag from my back,

For you are very concerned it will hurt me which you cannot bear,

Yet I refuse to discard this bag of mine,

Yes, it hurts me to no end because of its heavy weight,

Have fought with you on this , that I will not obey you,

For this huge bag bound on to me has bound me to you,

It is a constant reminder when was in pain, and no humanly help in hand,

You were there with me at all times and very lovingly carried me aloft,

Then how can I abandon this precious bag, if I do so, I will lose you,

How can I survive for even a billionth of a second without you,

For when I throw away this bag I will become lighter and my pain will vanish,

Then surely in my ecstasy will forget you, despicable that I am,

Without this bag too, you can effortlessly burn to ashes my karmic load ,

But why should I every time break the line, when so many pure are in the queue.

They too need you and love you more than I do, Let me learn to wait for my turn,

For many births with this heavy bag of mine, so that when my soul is fully cleansed

Then only do I deserve to reach you, although this wait is painful and longing,

Vithu amma and rakumai amma, please do not separate me from my loaded bag now,

Later surely, for when I wait and merge with you both will I value your love and grace,

Till then let me be bogged down by my precious karmic bag for it binds me to you ever.

OM TAT SAT. HARE KRISHNA HARE KRISHNA KRISHNA KRISHNA HARE HARE HARE RAAMA HARE RAAMA RAAMA RAAMA HARE HARE

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