I can not forgive myself whatever happened to one of our real hero in
Armenia Bhakta Armen Sargsyan, and you know him personally too.
Tough I was not even in the country and he never approached me for any help
ever, yet I feel very bad and guilty what had happened to hem.
After the jail and psychiatric hospital Armen was feeling very bad due to
many wrong medicines and injections and slowly slowly he started to have some
mental problems and was unable to work and support himself and his wife and two
children. The material very poor condition and his hepless situation pushed him
very very far and one day he wrote a very sad note to his wife and kids and
committed suicide wile jumping from the 5th floor.
My dear Prabhu believe me if we would show him a drop of compassion and
attention as well as respect whatever he had done for our movement and help him
little bit materially he would have been with us today and with his family.
And you know what is hearting me even more today?
That I am in Yerevan now for last two years already and could never find
sufficient money and courage to visit his wife and children because my
situation is not any better then their.
But I hope one day I will be able to make it and pay a visit to this REAL
HEROS family and help them out as much as I can and help them as much as I can
so that they would feel that they father and husband meaning something to us.
I purposefully didn't mention this tragedy in my book, because I didn't want
my karmi readers to know this very painful reality. I didn't want them to know
that devotees too they have some week points and after being such hero's can go
that far and commit such activities.
And you know what is the most painful part of all this story?
That there are some others who are almost in the same situation and God knows
what is gone happen to them.
Hope this will help you to understand the main meaning of my letter and you
will change what you ware thinking wile reading first part of my letter and
thinking that I am offensive or whatever.
And conclusion is that we shall never let this kind of thing happen to anyone
else again and as I have mentioned earlier learn from our past mistakes and
never repeat them again.
We can not possibly allow this things to happen, this is very painful
And at the end just wanted to quote from Srila Prabhupada to make my letter
even more meaningful to you:
Your love for me after I am gone will be shown how much you will cooperate
with each other.
I may be not quoted exactly word by word but am sure you got the point and
understand what our Acharya wanted from us.
I hope you can understand me well and hope I didn't upset or offended you by
any means and if so please forgive me and accept my humble obaisanses.
P.S. from Vrindavan Lila Dasi:
The name of the book mentioned by Sarva Bhavana is "Salted bread" - it's his story of presecution of Hare Krishna devotees in Soviet Union, his expiriences in Soviet Armeniya - prison, crazy house, tortures....
Devotee he is talking about in this letter, Armen Sargsyan, did a lot of preaching and distributing Srila Prabhupada's books in underground situation in Soviet Armeniya, he was also a victim of same types of persecutions described in SB's book.
if you interested in more info on preaching in USSR please vis it http://www.hkussr.com/