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Sri Krishna is performing such amazing love-sports in front of me! I can see such beautiful scenes all around me! My eyes are the very witnesses. Alas! Alas! I am trying to catch Him, but He is moving away. Oooh mummy! What is this! The whole universe has taken the form of the divine Kishor! 60.

rila Kavirâj Goswâmipâd says, after this, Sri Râdhâ got a sphurti which She mistook as ‘actual meeting’. She felt as if Sri Krishna had truly appeared before Her. She thought She had got Sri Krishna’s darshan and considered Herself extremely fortunate. She started thinking – is this real? While She deliberated in this manner, Sri Lilâshuk echoed Her feeling.

She mused, “He is here expressing inexpressible beautiful love-sports right before my eyes. Is this genuine?” She pondered and looked to Her left, right and behind. All She could see was His wonderful love-sports. Therefore, She said, “When I can see Him in all directions, then it is definitely true.”

However, She thought again and shook Her head – “How can it be true, when I can see the same thing everywhere?”

Then She concluded – “It is true, there is no doubt about it, since my eyes are the witnesses. They cannot lie.”

Again, She was suspicious – “The eyes alone are not to be trusted. Let’s see whether I can touch Him or not.”

Therefore, She spread out Her hands and tried to touch Him. She realized He was not quite near, but just a little distance away. Yet, however much She advanced, with Her outstretched hands, She always felt Him a little distance away. Then She uttered in woe – “What is this? – I cannot touch Him – He is always a little away!” She looked miserably to Her right; He was there, but a little distance away – same to Her left as well as behind – just a little distance away. Then Srimati gazed sorrowfully up at the sky and exclaimed – “Oooh mummy! What is this? The whole universe has taken the form of Kishor! Wherever I look, I find the Delight of my eyes – the same Nava Kishor Who is as sweet as honey!

If we assume Sri Lilâshuk uttered this verse in sâdhak state, then too its meaning is wonderful. It proves that the poet was so engrossed in Sri Krishna that such visions were most natural for him. He contemplated so deeply on Sri Krishna that he naturally got sphurti and when the sphurti was deep, he mistook it as ‘sâkshâtkâr’. At this stage, it is easy and natural for a devotee to get Sri Krishna’s darshan. Sri Krishna has called such a Mahâtmâ (great soul) as ‘very rare’.

“vâsudevam-sarvam-iti sa mahâtmâ sudurlabhah”

– [B.G.]