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Verse 60

Translation

Sri Krishna is performing such amazing love-sports in front of me! I can see such beautiful scenes all around me! My eyes are the very witnesses. Alas! Alas! I am trying to catch Him, but He is moving away. Oooh mummy! What is this! The whole universe has taken the form of the divine Kishor! 60.

rila Kavirâj Goswâmipâd says, after this, Sri Râdhâ got a sphurti which She mistook as ‘actual meeting’. She felt as if Sri Krishna had truly appeared before Her. She thought She had got Sri Krishna’s darshan and considered Herself extremely fortunate. She started thinking – is this real? While She deliberated in this manner, Sri Lilâshuk echoed Her feeling.

She mused, “He is here expressing inexpressible beautiful love-sports right before my eyes. Is this genuine?” She pondered and looked to Her left, right and behind. All She could see was His wonderful love-sports. Therefore, She said, “When I can see Him in all directions, then it is definitely true.”

However, She thought again and shook Her head – “How can it be true, when I can see the same thing everywhere?”

Then She concluded – “It is true, there is no doubt about it, since my eyes are the witnesses. They cannot lie.”

Again, She was suspicious – “The eyes alone are not to be trusted. Let’s see whether I can touch Him or not.”

Therefore, She spread out Her hands and tried to touch Him. She realized He was not quite near, but just a little distance away. Yet, however much She advanced, with Her outstretched hands, She always felt Him a little distance away. Then She uttered in woe – “What is this? – I cannot touch Him – He is always a little away!” She looked miserably to Her right; He was there, but a little distance away – same to Her left as well as behind – just a little distance away. Then Srimati gazed sorrowfully up at the sky and exclaimed – “Oooh mummy! What is this? The whole universe has taken the form of Kishor! Wherever I look, I find the Delight of my eyes – the same Nava Kishor Who is as sweet as honey!

If we assume Sri Lilâshuk uttered this verse in sâdhak state, then too its meaning is wonderful. It proves that the poet was so engrossed in Sri Krishna that such visions were most natural for him. He contemplated so deeply on Sri Krishna that he naturally got sphurti and when the sphurti was deep, he mistook it as ‘sâkshâtkâr’. At this stage, it is easy and natural for a devotee to get Sri Krishna’s darshan. Sri Krishna has called such a Mahâtmâ (great soul) as ‘very rare’.

“vâsudevam-sarvam-iti sa mahâtmâ sudurlabhah”-[B.G.]

This verse tells us that, Lila-kishor, the very sweet form of Shyâmsundar and the only delight of Sri Lilâshuk’s eyes and heart, is performing some wonderfulleelâ with him by remaining just a little distance away from him. In this way, the sweet Lord is relishing ras. He is very clever and knows how to enhance the love-thirst of a devotee rapidly. We learn from another verse that Sri Lilâshuk did manage to catch the Naughty One – the One Who is unperceivable by the best of Yogis! This was by the strength of His deepest anurâg. Otherwise, who has ever managed to hold that Eternally Playful One forever? As soon as Lilâshuk caught Him, Sri Krishna too smiled a little and laughing mirthfully, He slipped away. Then the poet said –

“hastam-utkshipya

yato’si balat krishna kim adbhutam,

hridayad yadi niryasi paurushang ganayami te.”

Meaning – “O Krishna! You are wrenching free from my grip, is it a sign of valour? I shall concede Your boldness only if You can escape from my heart!”

The devotee’s heart is Sri Krishna’s ‘resting room’. He can never leave it.

“bhakter hridoye krishner satata bishrâm.”

Meaning – “Krishna always reposes in the devotee’s heart”.

– [Sri Chaitanya-Charitâmrita]

Sripâd Bhatta Goswâmi said: In the previous verse Sri Lilâshuk exclaimed, ‘aho chitra vichitram’. From this, we learn that he has relished Sri Krishna-realization. Now by Sri Krishna’s mercy he is the sole proprietor of His kripâ. The other four eternal substances – time, karma, Mâyâ and the living entity – do not containkripâ. Jiva or the living entity is Sri Krishna’s eternal servant. Kripâ-shaktiarouses the desire for sevâ in the Jiva and eventually grants him actual darshanand Sri Krishna’s sevâ in His eternal abode.

We may feel that although the jivas, who are bound by Mâyâ, have no kripâ, the devotees do possess kripâ. In that case how can we say that Sri Krishna is the sole proprietor of kripâ-shakti? Sri Jiva Goswâmi has answered this question. He says that Sri Krishna is very merciful. Therefore, he has stored some kripâ in His devotees so that they may distribute it easily in this material world. The Divine kripâ flows from one living being to another using the merciful devotees as a medium.

Srila Chaitanya dâs says, Sri Lilâshuk got Sri Krishna’s darshan and recited this verse. He exclaimed, “Aho! What is this?” He observed carefully and said, “He is performing some inexpressibly sweet love-sports before me; not only in front of me, but also all around me. Alone, He is appearing everywhere. How do I know it is true? Well, it is true because my eyes are the witnesses. When I can see it with my very eyes, why should I doubt it? Sri Lilâshuk stretched his hands eagerly to touch his loving God, but could not catch Him. He cried in woe and misery – Alas! Alas! Sri Krishna is a little distance away. When the sphurtidisappeared, he gazed up at the sky and exclaimed sorrowfully – O Mother! How did the whole universe assume the form of Kishor?